I'm feeling a lot better. That was freaky finding out I sounded drugged. I felt slowed down but not particularly drugged. I'm very unhappy with that pdoc that put me on zyprexa and then wouldn't take me off it. But now I'm almost off it so that's what matters.

I've been thinking about all of it and some days I'm so grateful that we have meds that can help us function and were not just locked away somewhere. I felt so much happier before the psychosis though. I feel so different. I used to read 5 books at a time and since that break I've only read 1. I miss being hypo, I would get so much done. Now I have a hard time cleaning. But that has to do with my back too. My family is much happier now that I'm medicated, so that's good.

I try not to focus on the fact that I have bp all the time. It's just a part of me. But some days it does bring me down. Is anyone else like that? You can manage it most days and not even think about it, but sometimes it really does suck and you feel angry and sad about it?

I just hope I can get back to where I was pre psychosis. Lose the weight from the meds and start reading again and get back involved with my other passions. I get bored easily now too. But I guess there are trade offs....

[Travelinglady]

I'm glad to hear the great news. I have Bipolar II, so I have never had psychosis, but I have been on antipsychotics to prevent mania and I have gained weight on antidepressants.

I am glad for the meds, but with I didn't have to be on them either. They slow me down mentally.

Again, great to hear your good report, rose1985!