[UpDownMiddleGround]

I really need to get up today. I woke up yesterday morning not wanting to move. I set a goal to go to a meeting. I was late but I went. I thought by going, I would maybe shift up, but I didn't. I came home nd went to sleep and woke up feeling even more drained. I slept last night and I feel like I am stick in a pool of mud. I feel horrible that I have wasted my Saturday. I don't want to waste my Sunday but I just can't make myself move. I'm supposed to be at church this morning on duty to register families for a program that we have this summer. I don't have the energy. I don't want to see people. I can't take all of the stimulation of my worship service. The more I think about it, the more I want to pull my covers over my head and lay here. I know I need to get up. I just don't know how to get myself going.

[violetgreen]

Be proud of yourself for going to a meeting yesterday. Don't go to church, because you don't want to go, that's reason enough. Then, pick one thing that might be fun, and do it. For me, that would be a drive to a rural area to see all of the colors of green in my area, or to sit under a tree in front of a nearby lake, eating a Subway sandwich, or going to a movie, sitting in the very back row. Like you, when I feel that way, my fun doesn't include other people, just something away from home.

UpDownMiddleGround
Sounds like we've been in a similar boat. For days now I haven't been able to motivate out of bed. Only exception was work Thursday (2 1/2 hours late).

And yesterday (same as you!) had to force myself up to go pay the phone bill (can't really afford as is, let alone late charges). Seriously considered just throwing a coat over jammies (over days w/o shower self -- ewww). But would be "that" person on the bus. Showered hoping it would help. Zombied there just before closing. Home, back into bed, no motivation. Improved aroma though.

Do you have any pets? That is about the only motivation I can find at such times. Knowing sweet furbaby CAN'T do for herself. 100% dependent. Cleaning her enclosure, seeing to her foods etc. Such basic things, but it makes her SO happy. Seeing that is a lift in itself, plus some sense of accomplishment. (Doesn't hurt that she still loves even stinky zombie me!)

Sometimes just the one thing can lead to another (the "well, since I'm already up" factor...).

Anything like that? Someone depending on me is my only motivation sometimes. (Hear you on hating the wasted days, yet somehow insufficiently motivating.)

[UpDownMiddleGround]

I used to have a cat who adored me. He disappeared. I don't know if he ran away, someone stole him, or he got caught in a neighborhood sweep. It's been almost a year. My T as told me that it would be good for me to get another cat. I plan to this summer.

My son has been gone for the weekend and is on his way home. He's 13 and will be hungry. I will be forced out of bed or have him worried and checking on me all evening.

[UpDownMiddleGround]

By the way, I made it to church

Oh, I am so sorry! If you remember the pet care helping you, I'd agree with your T.

I'm glad you have your son's return to help. Any ideas what to make? The planning itself might help too. Best of luck.

I'm in a similar place. I agree with another poster, you should try to do something fun, just for you and away from people. I wish I had a cure for all this, but all I can offer is my sympathies. ((Hugs))