[Anrea]

Now, this isn't everyone - but it is a flaw of mine.

My issues cause me to be inconsistent.

Today, I want to go for a walk/run. I have no friends. I live in a tiny town and am sure I could find other people to walk with. But what happens after a week, and I am standing behind my curtain peeking out while people loiter outside waiting for me as I pretend not to be home.

I cannot commit to anything because I may not follow through. I hate that.

[Blaire]

Yep. Same here. I keep my world pretty small.

[BipolaRNurse]

Me too. My only consistency is my Inconsistency.

Originally Posted by BipolaRNurse

Me too. My only consistency is my Inconsistency.

Exactly.

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by Anrea

I cannot commit to anything because I may not follow through. I hate that.

I have just given up promising anything except "those have to" events ...

[violetgreen]

Inconsistent, me too.

Originally Posted by wiretwister

I have just given up promising anything except "those have to" events ...

Yes, I find I avoid commiting myself to things. It's not so much withdrawing as it is preventing letting someone down. Also, commiting myself to something sets me up for expectations regarding performance, etc. I would rather for instance show up to an event and spontaneously ask if they need help than volunteer to do so ahead of time.

[cashart10]

Yes! I may be a staunch republican...campaigning and such...when super manic, then a mild republican when I come down. Then, I will have another episode and will be campaigning for the Libertarian party (it is only an example ). Then, sometimes I will support one issue or obsess over a person that I would not do in my right mind.

Out of an episode, I mildly lean to the right. I lack and miss the passion however.

[smallwonderer]

I don't know about social events, I don't have a good answer for that. But I have a number rating for my different levels of being - say 0 is the worst depression... and I started seeking out hobbies that satisfied 'all the numbers'. Basically, there are only a few things I like no matter what state: music, electronics/computers, nice views/scenery. Still working on adding more things, but that is the strategy I've been taking... Anyone else got something good along those lines?

Boy, can I relate to this. Plus I'm always sick, which complicates things even further.

[newday2020]

Don't like committments...........rather be spontaneous.

Originally Posted by justafriend306

Yes, I find I avoid commiting myself to things. It's not so much withdrawing as it is preventing letting someone down. Also, commiting myself to something sets me up for expectations regarding performance, etc. ...

Yes. Letting people down. Just adds to the guilt. Spirals everything. Don't need that.

I'm so glad this thread got started. I thought it was just me.

[annielovesbacon]

I relate sooo much to this. People used to get really angry with me because when I'm manic I'll commit to a lot of things, get multiple jobs, volunteer at multiple places, etc. And of course for awhile I can do it no problem but when I get depressed I can't do any of it and I have to quit or let someone down or skip or whatever. So I don't commit to things anymore, which can bug people too.

[Tucson]

Making plans where someone else is counting on me to be there is distressing to me.

[UpDownMiddleGround]

I was thinking about this earlier this week. I committed to helping with a program and I thought, "What will I do when I don't feel like going? That is going to be so stressful." It's hard because I want to be involved with things. I just either get anxious, self conscious, or depression hits. Then I feel bad because I know that I didn't follow through and that I am likely burning another bridge.