[Blaire]

While I've been feeling better the past few days, it's clear that I'm still having some hypomania.

Today at work, I felt fine until around 4pm when a business letter I read contained a line that was very mildly passive aggressive, and it absolutely incensed me. This was the kind of thing where I would normally think "Ha! Screw you too buddy!" and move on. But I became furious, and it took an hour and lots of Atarax to calm myself down.

When I got home, I launched directly into a detailed art project and was hyper-focused on that for an hour and a half. Since then I've been irritable, agitated, distractible, and constantly losing track of time. It's like five hours later, and I still feel messed up from that blast of anger. Odds are this will carry over into tomorrow too.

I'm sure this type of experience is typical for bipolars. Does this happen to you guys?

Yes, i find anger very intense and overwhelming. I also find it very energizing. When i am really angry my home is spic and span!

[Anrea]

Yes, it happened to me last week at 4pm on a Friday, and as much as I rationalized myself, and used every technique I could think of, it didn't go away until the next day about 20 hours later. It was based on nothing. I thought it came from my BP, not my BPD because it didn't seem to have a trigger. I tried not to 'get into it' with my husband because he believes anger must have a reason and will try to blame himself and believe he has a shortcoming (or worse, argue with me, which the anger would LOVE). So I explained as carefully as I could and requested to be left alone until it passed.

I understand you cannot do that at work tomorrow, but maybe if you prepare some love notes to yourself, or some special treat, or a favorite outfit for tomorrow it might help as reminders during the day. Individually wrap 8 pieces of hard candy and open one every hour as you tell yourself how well you are doing. Of course, that idea might be why I have an eating disorder. haha

ANGER LIKES TO BE FED.

[Row Jimmy]

Yes, angry outbursts tend to follow me for a few days. It's almost like a full and complete release of emotion that needs to be replenished.

[st0psign]

I need conflict damn it, I thrive on it!

My nick name used to be Chaos Driven. Anger followed me around but I never acknowledged being an angry person. I don't think I am angry in general.... But man-O-man do I sometimes get that surge of anger and adrenaline which follows around and clings like a wet suit.

[Anrea]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

My nick name used to be Chaos Driven. Anger followed me around but I never acknowledged being an angry person. I don't think I am angry in general.... But man-O-man do I sometimes get that surge of anger and adrenaline which follows around and clings like a wet suit.

I have noticed my anger is like tape looking for something to stick to. I have to be careful not to feed it. I also am good at long term resentment. I don't have flash anger like I did when I was young. Rarely anyway. Now it has become a slow burn, like coals. It is easier to tend, but lasts longer.

I can relate.