Very Rough Day

Our sweet little guinea pig died today.

She was 6. I'd been mentally preparing myself, but, as you know, it's never enough when it actually happens. That is a pretty typical lifespan, and she'd had 2 physical issues that meds from the vet didn't fix (she carried on like a champ even despite the second thing being respitory, which is very hard on them). She'd lost a lot of weight (despite a good appetite to the end), but was lively and rambunctious.

Last night I gave her her "cookie" (a nutritional supplement biscuit kind of thing), and she was going crazy, trying to climb right out of the enclosure, just like always. (LOVED the cookies! She'd not let you forget THAT little night time routine, that's for sure!). But today, as I approached the enclosure... her position was atypical, and... yeah.

I've been crying so hard today. Just yesterday was the first day I didn't have a bad go with the episode. I'd even done the dishes and taken a shower. I made myself do a grocery run today. Held up ok (close eyes, breathe through) in public, but lost it putting the groceries away. Clearly there's still a lot going on under the surface, but mostly I just feel numb. And crying. A lot.

I'd ALWAYS say-sing something to her every time I went by. And go over to "scritchy-scratch". As our place is very small (less than 500 sq. ft), and she was central, that was a LOT. So EVERY time today, in any direction through the apartment... I'd start, and ... realize. You literally cannot go anywhere in here without going by her spot.

She was loved very, very much. She was unconditional love incarnate. So cute. So funny. I'm going to miss her so much. My little confidant.

I don't know what impact this will have on the episode. My mind is too full for anything else at this point. But the crying is probably a release on other fronts as well.

Sorry to go on and on about my wee rodent. But I need to say it. I don't know if distraction here will work, so if I'm kind of quiet for awhile, that's why. Or maybe it is. Don't know yet.

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure

I'm so sorry to hear about this, innerzone.

I know how hard it is. Pets are part of the family.

And she sounds like she was so cute.

HUGS

Thanks. I've been trying to put up a picture of her, and it just isn't working! But anyway, if you want to see her, she's here on my profile page in the album "Pets". She's the white piggie in the first 11 pictures. #11 is particularly cute, snuggled up when she was still a wee one.

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure

Awwww IZ I am so sorry for your loss..

I have no magical words but much love

I'm so sorry, my friend. Losing our furbabies is losing a member of the family, and you have every right to grieve for as long as you need to. I hope you can find some comfort here. (((HUGS)))

I'm really sorry for your loss ((((((((((IZ))))))))))

So sorry HUGS

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Hey, you loved that little rodent! I'm glad she gave you such joy, and I'm sorry you hurt now. Be assured she's at the Rainbow Bridge, waiting for you.

I'm sorry for your loss! My piggie is almost six so I'm preparing myself for the inevitable. He's healthy right now so hopefully he's got some time left in him.

You reminded me of my husband. When we first moved in together he could finally have a pet but we couldn't have cats or dogs. So we got a hamster. This hamster was the sweetest, most docile hamster you could ever imagine. You really roll the dice with hamsters because some can be high strung and nasty but this one wasn't. He would just sit on my husband shoulder and watch tv. But one day he got sick. We took him to the vet and it turned out he had a tumor in his chest that couldn't be removed. The vet said the kindest thing would be to put him down.

My husband lost it. He cried and sobbed over this hamster for days. Before we left the vet she pushed his front paws into plaster and wrote his name in it so we could always have a memory of it. My husband was so upset and his family didn't understand why he would be crying over a hamster. But that hamster was his first real pet and his friend. He loved hi like family.

So I understand how losing something, even though it was "just a Guinea pig", could be devastating. I hope you are able to work through the grief without much issue.

May your soul rest in peace, Weebie.

She's lived a long life that is too short to start with, she's spent all of her life to fill the space in and around you. It was nice to hear that she was lively despite the weight loss at the end, while receiving the best available care that anyone could've gotten, that is all because you've loved her unconditionally.

That sounds obsessive! This is just my lame attempt at humor, okay?

The wee friend/family was central in a sense that she was a huge part of your life, the 6 yrs of growth/support/caring/maturing, whatever you two both shared, has to help carry you through this time of grief. I'm hoping that eventually, the memories shall be converted into your strength even further.

I'll be thinking of you during this sad time, you have my sincerest condolences, please mourn the loss however you deem fit.

Lest we forget, we own the episodes and the loss in our lives, I don't know much else to say, please take your time to mend and heal your heart. You've cried for her, don't forget to smile for her too, would ya?

Im sorry for your loss, i know what its like, a hollow hole inside that can only be filled with their love and affection, i lost my 15 year old cat who was with me since birth.. She was my sister and the only one in my life who loved me unconditionaly..

I'm so sorry for your loss. I wish I could say something to make you feel better but losing a loved one is never easy. Words are never sufficient and I can only say that time will heal your pain. Remember that your guinea pig is in a better place and is no longer hurting. It sounds like she lived a happy, fulfilling life thanks to you.

Looked at a picture, innerzone. Beatiful.

What was her name?

I'm so sorry Losing a pet is absolutely heartbreaking.

So sorry. I know it hurts. Cry away, get it out. I sobbed when my cat Mandy passed. She was 16 years old last August. Since then I've rescued two cats. They are wondeful. I hope in time you can find a new furry friend. Peace

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Your little piggie sounds charming! So sorry for your loss. I had a little dog i adore and i don't know what i'd do without her. She knows when it's time for her chew stick, just like your piggie with her biscuit. My dog's only 3.5 tho so i will have her for a while.

Weebie

(And Piggedey-boo, Weebles, FuzzFace, LittleOne, The Weebs, and and and... You know how that goes. )

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Mr. Robot

Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.

--The Cure

I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost our beloved cat in December and we think of him often. The pain wears with time, and you will start to feel better. You will start to remember with joy the things your guinea pig did that made him/her unique. May you have that sweet joy in your heart as you grieve the loss, and may you feel comfort.