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#1
Jun 29, 2016, 11:12 PM
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I mean beyond the overall traits of BP like, sometimes I have psychosis, sometimes I have depression, sometimes I am manic, etc... I mean like how specifically does it affect you?
For me at work, when I'm depressed I am super unproductive and basically just sit there and stare off or am too consumed by thoughts to do much. When I am hypo I either work really really fast and get everything done, or I don't do any work at all because I am busy working on one of my crazy "plans" (Which of course never pan out) When I'm depressed I of course don't want to see friends, I'll make up excuses or whatever to get out of seeing them. When I'm hypo I act like a total goofball, full of energy, bouncing off the walls, shouting, dancing, etc... they are usually embarrassed to be seen with me in public 
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#2
Jun 29, 2016, 11:45 PM
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I don't have episodes very often, tops a couple of times a year, so more often than not it doesn't affect my every day functioning, I leave that to the terrible anxiety...
Episodes greatly affect work, friendships, relationships, everything, whether I'm hypomanic, manic, or depressed. i.e. When hypomanic, amongst many other things, I get in touch with people I was in relationships with some time ago, sometimes a long time ago, and then when I'm baseline again, I couldn't be bothered. Same with very ambitious projects. I hate coming off as so flaky. |
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#3
Jun 30, 2016, 01:20 AM
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Too many ways to list....I've been told my bipolar is "severe" and I was approved SSDI in three months. So, all or almost all daily life functions. Sorry if that is vague. I'm pretty messed up but I do my best.
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#4
Jun 30, 2016, 04:06 AM
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My neighbor says some days she is up to people the next she is fragile and can't handle not even conversations, it is a roller coaster ride for her... i hope it gets better for you blessings
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#5
Jun 30, 2016, 05:45 AM
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The only exception is: sometimes when I'm hypo/manic, I'm just too distracted by my racing thoughts. Like, I literally want to do EVERYTHING all at once and I can't decide what I want to do. I don't know if that makes sense to anyone. |
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#6
Jun 30, 2016, 05:02 PM
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Well mostly when in depressive episodes is when I have the hardest times functioning, as I just want to be alone, and sleep all day and night, not doing anything (other than shower, even when I don't want to I do, idk why I think it just calms the anxiety.). Sorry, I don't have Anything to add for hypomanic and manic episodes...
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#7
Jun 30, 2016, 05:41 PM
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Often its a white knuckle ride.. Bipolar is just Bipolar and it cycles , it always cycles
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#8
Jun 30, 2016, 10:48 PM
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#9
Jul 01, 2016, 04:18 AM
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I usually get mixed episodes which are hell. Agitated, depressed, irritable, inpatient, wild-eyed and suicidal. They're a riot. Whenever I am pure hypo or normal it is like a holiday. Hypo I can be irritable with racing thoughts but I am usually euphoric and I love that. Normal is my favourite. No dramas and peace.
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#10
Jul 01, 2016, 11:09 AM
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When depressed, it affects everything. I can't get out of bed, I can't keep up on chores, or bathing, can't hold a conversation or enjoy anything. I just wish for death and watch the calendar flip.
Hypo, I might talk too much and annoy people, but I function well. Mania, I think I function well but I guess I don't according to the people around me. I can get caught up in things, have racing thoughts, paranoid, feel people are following me and out to get me. Very suspicious of everyone and everything. Loud, talk to much or refuse to talk at all when paranoia is too high. Secluding myself, can't be around people, or the opposite, running around talking to any stranger who passes. Stable it effects me because I live in fear of episodes, medication side effects and government poisoning of the mentally ill. I'm terrified of ending up living in our local state hospital. Lots of anxiety about past episodes and fear of new ones. Doubts on if I'm really mentally ill or if something physical is going on. |
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#11
Jul 01, 2016, 02:07 PM
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#12
Jul 01, 2016, 04:10 PM
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sometimes even something as simple as keeping a conversation can be difficult
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#13
Jul 01, 2016, 08:28 PM
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I'm stable on mild depression and have been for a year. I sleep a lot. I go to bed at 10:30pm and sleep til 9:30am, or eleven hours. I laze in bed for hours in the morning, til noon or later. I give up trying to shower every day and keep it to every two days, in the evening. I don't have much energy. I try to do at least one chore a day. I don't socialize except for some tame joking around in my drop-in. I eat a lot -- can't seem to get enough food.
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#14
Jul 01, 2016, 09:37 PM
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Lol sometimes I don't even know if I have bipolar cause I just find it hard to relate to some other people with it. But I have also been diagnosed schizoeffective, so. My day-to-day life is just extremely difficult. I have moments of enjoyment but I deal with a LOT of strange thoughts, racing thoughts, obsessions, "delusions" (they are very real to me). I have a lot of feelings of extreme irritability, I often feel really angry about society and our culture, and I have bothersome hallucinations. I have times where I experience an "extreme state"...not sure how else to describe it but it's like my body/mind is on HIGH ALERT and it is very scary...I burn my sage and try to ride it out. I am often preoccupied with thoughts of good versus evil. My mood and energy levels fluctuate A LOT. Sometimes I am so tired I can barely move, sometimes I am up at the crack of dawn and can't sleep at night. It sucks.
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Jul 01, 2016, 09:44 PM
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Well my mania is what keeps me going. At least it does at night. I am nocturnal by nature and have adapted into that environment pretty well. I love thunderstorms and rain and function at my highest when there is no sun. I like darkness and shadows. I don't even know where I am going with this. I just ramble on and on. But as far as daily life, I don't do much except shower and eat when I feel I can. My appetite has been weird lately too.
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#16
Jul 01, 2016, 10:53 PM
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When manic, I cut people off in conversation a lot and have difficulties concentrating. Sometimes I just space out, and I'm easily distracted. I get consumed in projects and eventually get paranoid. People tell me not to worry about things, but I get an idea and run with it.....constantly. Work becomes a major struggle, and I'm not sleeping or eating much. When manic, there's too many thoughts buzzing around in my head, and I can't keep up with the things I really need to accomplish, because my priorities are not straight at all. Last edited by xRavenx; Jul 01, 2016 at 11:06 PM. |
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#17
Jul 05, 2016, 12:52 AM
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They affect me within social settings and around friends and family. Last night I was manic and was clearly acting crazy at the bar because I was hypersexual and I was angry at the guy I went to meet for wanting me to be oppressed by him haha.
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#18
Jul 05, 2016, 10:30 PM
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Mine wax and wan dependant on where I am..... baseline , up or down.
Currently I am dealing with ridiculous anxiety and panic stuff.. Some is simple to understand as its situational. When it's just Bipolar reaching up and slapping me ,, Life certainly gets harder. I just have made myself some rules , daily rules despite my mood. I bathe daily, I clean at least one room ( usually more I am OCD about cleaning) I reach out to friends that are in the same Bipolar boat as me, Friends from here. When I have plans or agreed to be somewhere that involves people I go regardless to how I feel.. Omg it sucks sometimes, But I try really hard to not let people down and by forcing myself to go it keeps me from isolating too much. But I do need my "own time" and I find it somehow someway or I tilt off into a mood shift.
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#19
Jul 06, 2016, 05:34 PM
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My BP cripples me especially now since I'm severely depressed and going through a med change. I don't get out of bed. The only time I'm able to eat is making chocolate milk in the morning to take my meds. Other than that, food just sounds gross. I don't even run a brush through my hair every day. It's just up in a messy bun. I shower about every two days unless I'm doing stuff outside and sweating. And I hate showering. It takes so much energy out of me. So much so that I rarely even shave my legs lol. But hey! I shaved them today! Took me two benzos to make it in the shower but I got it done lol.
Now tomorrow I'm supposed to go to a concert with my bro and friends and to be quite honest, I don't want to go! The way my anxiety has been?! And a huge crowd?! Hell no. I'll need two klonopin to make it there too! But it's for my brothers birthday and I'm forcing myself to get out. Who knows. Maybe I'll even Have fun? Lol Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk |
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#20
Jul 06, 2016, 07:18 PM
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