Sudden onset of fear to sleep

Bare with me. Theres some background stuff before the sleep stuff.

I dont know if this is the right area to post this. I was just recently inpatient for 9 days. Discharged Thursday.

During inpatient I refused to take most of my medications as I had been off of them for a few weeks and wanted to slowly add them back in while i was there. They where ok with this as long as i took my lithium and latuda everyday.

By tuesday i was back on all my meds completely. For the exception of one medication that the psychiatrist wanted me to take. Still dont understand why he wanted me to take the Naltrexone pill as i have been on the vivatrol naltrexone shot for over a year missed my last dose. He new this. My normal doc who handles the shot also works in the psych ward 2 dayd a week. I seen him once when i was up there. He was on vacation the majority of my stay.

Wednesday to appease the nurses on the floor i finally took the damn pill. Within a few hours i started feeling nauseous. Told them. They ordered zofran. I threw up told the nurse that was available at the time who was the meanest one there. She ticked me off. Eventually helped me. Went back to my room changed came out to find my nurse who was assigned to me but ran into the psychiatrist and went off on him about the other nurse and how i didnt feel good. He wanted to keep me there longer but my nurse eventually talked to me to find out what happened and talked to him. The zofran wared off another pill given late at night. All was well into the next morning. 2 hours before they discharge me. I get nauseated again. Mean nurse is trying to get me to take my morning meds. Told her what was happening. She said she would try and get some more zofran. It never happened.

Finally discharged and home. Have my meds. Theres a bottle of zofran in there. Finally take it. I go eat lunch with my family. Finally real food. By 8pm that night my life turns into a living hell for the next 30ish hours. Im not able to keep anything down. Thr first 3 hours i was mostly dry heaving every 10 to 15 minutes my sister was keeping me sane. I was trying to take the zofran to get the nausea to stop but wasnt quick enough. On the 3rd pill i took it finally worked some and i was able to fall asleep for 3 hours. Before being jolted out of sleep with my gut wrenching. This went on into friday evening when i finally dragged myself to the er. Doc there said it was a reaction to the medication. Kind of figured that one out. I was dehydrated at this point so they gave me 2 bags of fluid and some potassium pills.

I get home around 1 in the morning. Im not tired. Know i need to rest so i get into bed anyways and shut off the lights which ends up scaring the **** out of me. Never has before. So i turn them back on. Get back into bed and just lay there. I dont remember falling asleep. I remember the last time i looked at the time. It was close to 630 in the morning. I was awake 3 hours later.

Yesterday was spent trying to figure out what i needed. Like the whole day. I couldnt tell if i needed to eat, smoke, wss thirsty, tired or nauseous I literally felt numb and everything felt the same.

I spent some time playing a game online with some friends later on in the night. They went to sleep by 1am. I put my computer away. Turned my flashlight on my phone on. Turned off the main light in my room and laid in bed.

Sleep didnt come till sometime after 430. I dont know whats wrong. I try to close my eyes and this overwhelming sense of fear has overtaken my body and i open them back up and it turned into a vicious cycle. Sometime after 430 i lost the fight because next thing i know im jolted awake like i accidentally fell asleep on a bus. Looked at my phone and it was 630am.

I dont feel tired.

I havnt taken any of my medication since wednesday besides zofran. The hospital is aware. They called me yesterday and asked me if i was being med compliant i told them no. They asked if it was do to the nausea i said yes. She told me to talk to my doctor about it. Im supposed to call the doctor Monday from the inpatient psych floor. To meet up with him in the afternoon. He has paperwork for me that i need.

Sorry for the long post. Has anyone experienced something like this?

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I've had fear to fall asleep because I thought I would die or something. I didn't get any real sleep for weeks.

I'd try and figure out your meds. finding the right ones will help.

Is it possible the severe med reaction was causing anxiety (totally understandable) about your safety?


WC