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...and I'm either completely ****ed or flying. My mind is definitely flipping though. That I'm sure of. Summersaults all over the place. Like an electron in an atom racing all over the place.
I enjoyed the productive happy hypo the last couple of weeks so I let it be since I'm on meds. And I've been fine since March on them. So it couldn't hurt. I don't think it's hurting yet though. I’m living in my own world currently. And it’s excruciatingly exhilarating. Then again, maybe it's bordering exhilaratingly terrifying. I kept seeing swarms of ants on the ground as I drove home today. I hate bugs. Oh so much. And I'm paranoid. But I am still in control and fine But I do think these summersaults need to stop soon. I think I need to lock myself in the house and see how life plays itself out in the next few days. Trazodone isn't working and I'm not sure how to get sleep otherwise. Why does sleep have such an impact on everything? And my pdoc just mentioned how well I've been doing ![]() How long can you function on 2-3 hours of sleep before you're considered off the rails? Haven't knowingly made a completely fool of myself, am not in the hospital and am not in jail, so I think I'm still cruising on the rails. Soooo what does everyone have planned for their weekend? It is Fridayy you know ![]()
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Went a month on 2 hours a night before I wound up in the hospital.
Gotta be here at work tonight and all day tomorrow. Chillax on Sunday and regroup for another week.
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Nothing.
I'm going to sit in my room and feel sorry for myself. And I might eat about five bowls of ice cream, though I haven't really decided on that one yet. I'm trying to lose weight. What are you planning on doing this weekend, curiously?
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I would put a call in to my pdoc. The bad thing about going manic is the usual crash that comes afterwards. Take care of yourself.
As far as the weekend, I spend the evenings into part of the night with my husband. He works nights so this is really the only time we get to spend together. We do a little partying but not too much.
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