[Cmey2514]

23yo male living with bipolar 10+ years. In the past 5/6 years I have noticed myself not wanting to do certain things because of a prior mess up (in the work place, home life, or socially). I avoid confrontation even when it carries a strong potential to lead to a worse situation. Lately it has been getting me into trouble based on my poor decision not to go to work because of a previous mess up and possible embarrasment. I have tried numerous ways to get myself to face the consequences but the feeling of embarrassment overcomes me 100% of the time. I am currently at 1000mg of depakote and 100mg seroquel. Any/all ideas are welcome

[gina_re]

Welcome to PC!!
I'm sorry you are suffering right now. We've all been there at some point or another. I don't have any advice at this moment, but I am curious....are you seeing a therapist? He or she may be able to help you work through the issues you are having. Either way, I'm glad you're here and all of us here will do the best we can to support you.

[xRavenx]

Originally Posted by Cmey2514

23yo male living with bipolar 10+ years. In the past 5/6 years I have noticed myself not wanting to do certain things because of a prior mess up (in the work place, home life, or socially). I avoid confrontation even when it carries a strong potential to lead to a worse situation. Lately it has been getting me into trouble based on my poor decision not to go to work because of a previous mess up and possible embarrasment. I have tried numerous ways to get myself to face the consequences but the feeling of embarrassment overcomes me 100% of the time. I am currently at 1000mg of depakote and 100mg seroquel. Any/all ideas are welcome

Welcome to the forum. I'm sorry to hear about the difficulties you are experiencing. It sounds like me in a way. I lack motivation when it comes to doing things around my home, checking my bank account/dealing with bills, and sometimes avoid things socially because of loss of motivation, I've been missing work, and have difficulties with confrontation. You have support here.

I'm on 200 mg of Seroquel, and I'm also on Lamictal and Klonopin. Sometimes I notice my Seroquel can make me less motivated due to the sedating effects....I'm wondering if you experience that too? It's interesting how with Bipolar, the lack of motivation can be a symptom of BP depression, but it can also be a side effect of meds...so it's a "Which came first? Is it the chicken or the egg?" sort of scenario. Maybe you can ask your pdoc about that. I completely empathize with how hard these issues are, no matter what the cause is.