What are your depressive episodes like?

For me I don't leave my bed for days. I barely eat or drink.

I lose motivation to do anything. I tend to be easily irritated, and not very nice to be around.

No energy, sleep a lot, increased pain, decreased capacity to cope, feel hopeless, foggy, distant, isolative.

Incredibly exhausted, deeply hopeless, no motivation, no interest in or joy from activities and things that I used to love, despair, suicidal ideation and a loss for words in speech and writing. My mind can be totally blank, or at other times full of negative thoughts.

I sleep alot, Get easily agitated and angry, Cry alot, Isolate

What about your eating patterns?

I sleep and cry in my closet a lot.

physical aches and pains, fatigue, vomiting, trouble sleeping or too much sleep, slow thought processing, confusion, difficulty with decision making, flat emotions, numbness, high anxiety, blank thoughts. I also stop eating. I isolate and don't want to see anyone.

I used to drink a lot and depend on caffeine to make it to work but not anymore.

Fatigue, lack of motivation, I feel like the walls are closing in on me and a sense of doom. Like everything is dark.

Just .....

Stay in bed for days...hopeless about everything, gloom and doom

Isolation, fatigue, lack of interest in anything, and sense of hopelessness. Usually resulting in SI. I eat about the same no matter what.

No motivation, staying in bed all day, infact I'm in bed right now, hopelessness. Like there is a dark cloud hanging over my head. It is a special kind of Hell...

I have two kinds of depressive episodes. The kind where I stop doing everything, including eating, and just stay in bed for days. The other kind is a mild depression where I experience psychosis (I start thinking there is an entity controlling me and forcing me to hurt myself). Not sure which is worse.

I do this also.

I do not want to be around people, lose interest in things that usually bring me happiness, poor concentration, that "foggy" feeling, very low self-worth, hopelessness, thoughts of self-harm, irritability, random crying spells, constant negative thoughts. Usually anxiety goes along with it since depression makes things so overwhelming and the things that usually come to me easy get extremely difficult.

Thanks all. I don't feel so alone now.