[Victoria'smom]

I don't feel I need it. It's 1x every month or so but I draw a blank while I'm there. My next appointment isn't until the 8th so I have time to think about it. I have nothing I want to talk about and I don't have any problems because I don't do anything. I'm not on meds, I'm stable-ish (I guess), I'm eating but it kinda feels like I'm running away from the mental health system. T's not a warm and cuddly T. I don't really care for her but it's only meeting 3 but it seems like there's no point being every 5 wks. She can't see me any more then that. I have no other options. I can go back to the other clinic but really don't want to. I understand that some treatment maybe better then none because I'm on the severe side of the spectrum. I've withdrawn from everything but it seems like no point to continue with them. They didn't have my medical records yet last time I was there. I feel like I waste her hour. I'm worried she'll push medication as I have psychosis too but haven't had anything like that lately.

Possible trigger:

except for wanting to cut at times

IDK what to do. Any suggestions?

[Skeezyks]

Hello Miguel'smom: The Skeezyks doesn't have any suggestions. But I just thought I would mention I'm not on any medications either nor do I see a therapist. I also pretty-much don't do anything of any consequence day-to-day. I guess if I wanted to delve into my past (& there was a therapist who was interested in doing that with me) perhaps that would be interesting... although realistically it wouldn't change anything. Plus there's a lot in my past I am simply unable to speak of.

Sometimes I think it would be nice simply to have someone to talk with just in general... sort-of like a rest-a-friend situation. (I don't have any real ones... don't even want any.) But the associated cost & the logistics of getting there make it seem as though it's more trouble than it's worth. Plus, as I wrote above, it wouldn't change anything. As I once said to one therapist I spoke with briefly... I know what my options are... I just don't like any of them.

From my perspective, I wouldn't worry about wasting your T's time. I think it's simply a matter of whether or not you feel you can get anything out of the time you spend with your T & how much it's costing you in terms of both money & time. Perhaps the ideal thing would simply be to stop going for a period of time to see how it goes with the understanding that you'd like to be able to come back at some point if you feel the need. It's always best, I think, not to burn one's bridges entirely. I still see my pdoc periodically even though I'm no longer on psych med's & have no intention of going back on them.

[wiretwister]

i really really needed my T when I was in that "black" place ... and was afraid of myself control .... better now ... worked thru that and no longer see her .... but if I ever go back there I will call her ..... maybe not the best way but I use a T when I fear myself ...

[LucyG]

I don't blame you. When I was on meds for 13 years I saw a Pdoc. I would counsel with her if I had something I wanted to talk about. Otherwise, I just went in for a meds check.

I don't see the need for lifelong therapy just because you have an illness. My little sister became so dependent on her therapist that she allowed this woman to convince her to cut off contact with her family. That was over 10 years ago, and we only hear from her once in a great while. I know she had issues with her father [we have different fathers] that were legit, but I don't know that I think this was the right solution.

I can relate a bit...especially about forgetting what to talk about. I also have things I can't talk about so what's the point. But I need to progress and get better which means I have to try something and like you said, something is better than nothing. In the end, it's your decision and we'll continue to support you either way.

[Victoria'smom]

I just don't want it to get to the point where I go into an episode and only have the hospital to rely on.

Yes, you are closing your support network a bit if you quit. Sure you're ready for that?

[Victoria'smom]

I do not know.

I understand....it's hard. Maybe make a pros and con list?

[LucyG]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I just don't want it to get to the point where I go into an episode and only have the hospital to rely on.

I saw one therapist [not my Pdoc] when I needed someone to talk to certain things about. I'd make an appointment when I had something to talk about it. It worked quite well for a couple of years.

[Victoria'smom]

Her availability is awful so I don't think I can just get in when I need to.

[~Christina]

Please don't shoot yourself in the foot , again.

Please continue to see her even if you think it's unnecessary it's better to have her than to have one and be able to see....than taking a risk with a new one that could take forever to get an appt.

You do have a long history of getting bad bad in a matter of days or even hours, I've see it happen so many times with you.

Stay safe

[Victoria'smom]

Is staying with a T that can only see me 1x a month or so okay or should I go back to the one that could see me more often but she seemed scared of me?

[Moose72]

I stopped seeing my T because we stopped having anything to talk about.

[cakeladie]

So my son sees a T. It took my a long time to find one with our insurance. He goes once a week and he's been going for almost a year. At time I see no improvement and it's very frustrating. I have been thinking about pulling him but he does talk to her. I understand this is a slow process but.......

Sorry if I got off topic

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I don't feel I need it. It's 1x every month or so but I draw a blank while I'm there. My next appointment isn't until the 8th so I have time to think about it. I have nothing I want to talk about and I don't have any problems because I don't do anything. I'm not on meds, I'm stable-ish (I guess), I'm eating but it kinda feels like I'm running away from the mental health system. T's not a warm and cuddly T. I don't really care for her but it's only meeting 3 but it seems like there's no point being every 5 wks. She can't see me any more then that. I have no other options. I can go back to the other clinic but really don't want to. I understand that some treatment maybe better then none because I'm on the severe side of the spectrum. I've withdrawn from everything but it seems like no point to continue with them. They didn't have my medical records yet last time I was there. I feel like I waste her hour. I'm worried she'll push medication as I have psychosis too but haven't had anything like that lately.

Possible trigger:

except for wanting to cut at times

IDK what to do. Any suggestions?

I'm going through the same issue with my T. I don't seem to care enough about her to show up every two weeks. I'm going through a depression right now and it makes it really hard to get ready and drive there. Maybe it would help if you got a different T?

Congrats on no meds btw! How's the hubby and son doing??

[Victoria'smom]

I'm not sure if a new T would help. I don't want to even leave my house.

My husband's doing well med free too. My son we've started the process of getting him re-dx to see if he qualifies for testing accommodations.