[JustJace2u]

This seems to be a pattern of mine. I get stressed beyond belief and just stop going to class. I feel like such a failure

I've dropped out of post-secondary school on two occasions and can't go back a third time even if I wanted to, due to loans that need to be paid back. Sorry to hear you are going through this, it certainly doesn't feel good. You are not alone though.

[Victoria'smom]

I did the same thing as did my husband and 2 sisters all BP.

[JustJace2u]

I just feel like such a loser. Just when I think I have it together I go and screw it up again. Sometimes I just wonder if life is worth it all.

I dropped out of college 3 times in total. I want to go back again but I'm not sure it's possible. I think I may just try one class and then see how that goes. I feel like I could handle it now but realistically I just don't know. How long do you plan to take off this time?

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I dropped out of college 3 times in total. I want to go back again but I'm not sure it's possible. I think I may just try one class and then see how that goes. I feel like I could handle it now but realistically I just don't know. How long do you plan to take off this time?

I'm going to try and go back next semester, after the holidays. The new semester starts in January. My plan is to only take 1 class this time and see if that makes any difference.

Originally Posted by JustJace2u

I'm going to try and go back next semester, after the holidays. The new semester starts in January. My plan is to only take 1 class this time and see if that makes any difference.

Yeah, I think 1 class is all I can handle now but I will build on that hopefully and it's better than nothing. Don't beat yourself up for the break but get back on the horse if you can. I wish I would have furthered my education while younger but I'd always get overwhelmed even though I did well. I put too much pressure on myself to get all A's....now I'd be satisfied with C's and consider myself accomplished.

Soketimes sh#t happens and it's out of our control, so don't beat yourself up about it. BP is a chronic illness that oftentimes surprises us when we least expect it.

You were also taking 2 classes while working full time. I had a hard enough time doing part time school and pet time work. I think a lot of people would get stressed in your situation, and BP just makes it all worse.

I'm sure 1 class next semester will make things easy on yourself. And I learned the hard way that sometimes you can't always take the combo of classes that you want/need to take because sometimes that combo is just too much work. So compromise is very important! Look at your classes, assess the possible course load, and see if you think you can handle things based on your past performance. Sometimes you have to bite the bullet and take an easier combo classes, even if they're not your first choices. Or, in other cases, you might have to spread out the course load over more than one semester, and it sounds like this option may be best for you in the interim.

If you have an academic advisor, I would highly recommend talking to him or her to see how you can work out your schedule to fit your needs. In my experience, they've met with hundreds, if not thousands, of students over the years.

What also helped me academically was making friendships/acquaintanceships with students in my classes. I know it can be hard if you're part time, but trust me: it helps IMMENSELY

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

Yeah, I think 1 class is all I can handle now but I will build on that hopefully and it's better than nothing. Don't beat yourself up for the break but get back on the horse if you can. I wish I would have furthered my education while younger but I'd always get overwhelmed even though I did well. I put too much pressure on myself to get all A's....now I'd be satisfied with C's and consider myself accomplished.

I'm exactly the same. I wish I had done so many things differently when I was younger, but at the same time, knowing what I know now I don't know that it would have made much difference. I'm 42 years old and my life is so messed up

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

Soketimes sh#t happens and it's out of our control, so don't beat yourself up about it. BP is a chronic illness that oftentimes surprises us when we least expect it.

You were also taking 2 classes while working full time. I had a hard enough time doing part time school and pet time work. I think a lot of people would get stressed in your situation, and BP just makes it all worse.

I'm sure 1 class next semester will make things easy on yourself. And I learned the hard way that sometimes you can't always take the combo of classes that you want/need to take because sometimes that combo is just too much work. So compromise is very important! Look at your classes, assess the possible course load, and see if you think you can handle things based on your past performance. Sometimes you have to bite the bullet and take an easier combo classes, even if they're not your first choices. Or, in other cases, you might have to spread out the course load over more than one semester, and it sounds like this option may be best for you in the interim.

If you have an academic advisor, I would highly recommend talking to him or her to see how you can work out your schedule to fit your needs. In my experience, they've met with hundreds, if not thousands, of students over the years.

What also helped me academically was making friendships/acquaintanceships with students in my classes. I know it can be hard if you're part time, but trust me: it helps IMMENSELY

Thanks for this. I'm just so done with life

Originally Posted by JustJace2u

I'm exactly the same. I wish I had done so many things differently when I was younger, but at the same time, knowing what I know now I don't know that it would have made much difference. I'm 42 years old and my life is so messed up

I will be 42 in January.

I wish I would have sought help and stuck to treatment at an early age and did so much better but I am who I am and I do seem to learn valuable lessons in my own unique way and through my own mistake making so hopefully some young person can benefit from my experience but I don't find anyone really wants to listen to me

All my skills are obsolete. I'm not marketable in the workplace at all. I need training to get marketable but I'm confident I will find something which suits me soon.

I dropped out of college to when I was younger. I'm 42 now and hope that once I have a car to go back. But I'm gonna start small. I'm gonna go for an bachelors in business administration.

Please don't beat up on yourself. Just start with a smaller load next time. I couldn't handle working part time, going to college full time and being a single mom. Next time I'm just gonna do part time college.

You can do it! Just realize that you need a smaller load.

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

All my skills are obsolete. I'm not marketable in the workplace at all. I need training to get marketable but I'm confident I will find something which suits me soon.

You will. I believe in you!

Yeah, when I went back to college I was working over 30 hours a week, raising an infant and my husband fell off a 2 story building so he was disabled in a wheel chair and not do much but he did look after my son while I worked. It was very, VERY hard to do all 3. I pulled it off but I went coockoo and delusional a couple times when trying to pull off all 3. It's no easy task.

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by ElsaMars

I will be 42 in January.

I wish I would have sought help and stuck to treatment at an early age and did so much better but I am who I am and I do seem to learn valuable lessons in my own unique way and through my own mistake making so hopefully some young person can benefit from my experience but I don't find anyone really wants to listen to me

I'll listen :-)

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by rose1985

I dropped out of college to when I was younger. I'm 42 now and hope that once I have a car to go back. But I'm gonna start small. I'm gonna go for an bachelors in business administration.

Please don't beat up on yourself. Just start with a smaller load next time. I couldn't handle working part time, going to college full time and being a single mom. Next time I'm just gonna do part time college.

You can do it! Just realize that you need a smaller load.

If this doesn't work I'll know college just isn't for me. I've tried so hard to prove everyone wrong who spent many years of my childhood telling me that I would never amount to anything in life.

Originally Posted by JustJace2u

If this doesn't work I'll know college just isn't for me. I've tried so hard to prove everyone wrong who spent many years of my childhood telling me that I would never amount to anything in life.

That's horrible. Don't listen to those people. College isn't for everyone. If college doesn't work out there are other options.

[JustJace2u]

Pdoc is increasing my Lamictal to 100mg and lowering my Wellbutrin to 150mg. Hoping things will eventually even out and I can have more 'normal' days. I really hate this roller coaster of emotions.

[Nate7907]

Man I am going though the same ****. Depression just makes it so hard for me to go.

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by Nate7907

Man I am going though the same ****. Depression just makes it so hard for me to go.

It's hard enough for me as it is, add BP into the mix and it's complete chaos.

[Nate7907]

I have all A's, but going is such a drag lately all I want to do is sleep. Sleep is a seductive enemy my friend. I might fail out because of fu****g hospitalization!

[Wander]

I have dropped out of two degrees due to MI. This year I have only managed one until as I have been so unwell. I am aiming to do four next year but it all depends on my health. it so frustrating to be limited in this way but I am not giving up. I am studying Writing with the hope of earning an income writing articles, helping people wth writing stuff for their websites, editing other peoples work and writing my own novels and poetry. May even write a mental illness memoir as they have helped me so much I hope to be able to help others.

Still, most of the time it feels more like an Occupational Therapy exercise than an actual degree leading me to employment. Sometimes I feel like a loser too. I am 40 so I should be in a career right now, not trying to start one.

[JustJace2u]

Originally Posted by Wander

I have dropped out of two degrees due to MI. This year I have only managed one until as I have been so unwell. I am aiming to do four next year but it all depends on my health. it so frustrating to be limited in this way but I am not giving up. I am studying Writing with the hope of earning an income writing articles, helping people wth writing stuff for their websites, editing other peoples work and writing my own novels and poetry. May even write a mental illness memoir as they have helped me so much I hope to be able to help others.

Still, most of the time it feels more like an Occupational Therapy exercise than an actual degree leading me to employment. Sometimes I feel like a loser too. I am 40 so I should be in a career right now, not trying to start one.

I had so many hopes and dreams when I was younger and now everything just seems so hopeless. As I was telling my t the other day, I look at how successful a lot of my HS classmates have become and it makes me just wanna cry because I feel like I'm at a dead end.

[Wander]

Originally Posted by JustJace2u

I had so many hopes and dreams when I was younger and now everything just seems so hopeless. As I was telling my t the other day, I look at how successful a lot of my HS classmates have become and it makes me just wanna cry because I feel like I'm at a dead end.

That is an awful feeling, I can relate. BUT you are not at a dead end. You will find a way through. Don't compare yourself to others, it only ends badly. You are beautiful and unique, you are not in competition with anyone in life. Just be you and life your life as you see fit. Can you go back to classes next year? What are you studying?