[vintagexsoul]

All my fears about moving disappeared after my argument with my mom at Walmart. In an instant anxiety snapped into anger which turned into confidence because I'm going to prove my parents wrong about every erroneous notion they have regarding me. I was pretty savage to my mom. But if felt good to make those valid points known and let her know how I've been feeling for years, pent up inside of me.

They just don't have a clue about me. I'm pretty strong and confident. I can take care of myself and they act as if I'm helpless just because I don't drive. You know. I'm never giving anyone else an opportunity to tell me I'm a burden and treat me like crap. And they're never getting another opportunity to break me down. I'mma big girl now, can tell them to F off, and walk away without any concerns because I'm independent. I think I made my mom cry tonight, and I'd feel bad...except I recall being a little girl and her yelling at me for being ugly when I cried, and then she'd send me to my room to cry alone. So naw, don't feel sorry for her. Not my fault if she is struggling to handle the reality of how much of a failure she is as a parent.

It's liberating, being a fully independent adult. Everything I am today, is because of my efforts, not due to anything my parents have done for me.

I'm never having kids though. Being bipolar. The PTSD. The possibility of repeating the cycle of abuse. No. I'm not giving myself an opportunity to harm a child. I'm pretty screwed up. Children need someone stable, who isn't going to suddenly lose it.

[Travelinglady]

A big girl's----a woman's!--attitude!

[Moose72]

Good for you! I sometimes wish I'd never lived with my mom. She can be toxic. That hurt my kids for sure. I know I'm good for them, and their dad is good to them, so there's that. Now, we're in our own place, so that's good.

Sometimes we must stand up for ourselves. I hope everything works out. (((Hugs)))

[Unrigged64072835]

Hope things work out for you.

[JustJace2u]

As much as I love my parents, I know I could never live with them again. I do miss being closer to them though because I only get to see them a few times a year.

[vintagexsoul]

Everything is going to work out fine. It might be rough and bumpy now and then, but I'm pretty confident I can make this work. I'm excited about trying! I haven't spoken to my mom since yesterday. She's a grown woman, she can get over it. I'm not going to go and be like sorry, didn't mean what I said when I meant every word of it. I'm not sorry for being honest and standing up for myself.

I'm sorry I didn't do it sooner.

[Acorn Oaktree]

I finally stood up to my mom at the age of 35, and that's what triggered my first manic and psychotic episode, and ended me up with a diagnosis! Way to go! Good for you!!!

About kids.....I don't know how old you are, but don't let yourself believe that you can't be a good mom. Because you can! Nobody's perfect! All parents make mistakes! But it is your choice and your choice alone to make.