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Something really stupid just happened to me and right now I am feeling so guilty due to quite little that I feel the need to share it to get it off my chest. I went to a tango evening and had an amazing time. Came home short before three (didn't drink anything) and realized I had forgotten the keys. I had to ring the doorbell which means I had to wake up my flatmates who do shift work and need to get up at 4:30. I explained I had forgotten the keys and they opened but didn't even say hello. They are so pissed on me right now. I am kind of the chaos queen in this house anyway. Never happened to me before though. Left them a letter in the kitchen saying I was sorry and it won't happen again but still I feel awful. I think I should be feeling less awful though, even though obviously it is a reason to be pissed. But I feel like I am a bad person -.-
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That fact that you care shows you are considerate and definitely not a bad person, and the fact that no one said "Hello!" at the door does not mean people are holding grudges. You had been active and having a good time and the others had been sleeping and were likely just wanting to get back to bed rather than engaging in any conversation.
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Try not to beat yourself up....your not the first person to have locked themselves out, your human, we all make mistakes
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You are not a bad person. You said you were sorry when it happened. It was the first time. You even left a note, nice touch and sign of a good roommate. Stuff happens. Next month one of them will forget their keys. I think you should feel less awful too. You are not a bad person.
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Does such a strong reaction happen often (causing uncertainty, guilt, shame and (impulsive/excessive) behaviour to get reassurance it's not a (as big a) problem (as you make it out to be)); is it in any way an impediment?
If not then it doesn't matter. If so, you might want to talk about it with a/your therapist or psychiatrist. Preferably a therapist.
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