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Grand Magnate
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Dec 19, 2016 at 01:49 PM
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Hi y'all, I'm having a really stressful day. 2 years ago today my mentally ill 24 year old grandson (addicted to opioids also) was murdured in an act of drug related violence. He was dealing drugs and a competing drug dealer bashed his brains out with a fire place poker.
I hate mental illness, I hate drug abuse. I wish I could wave a magic wand and instantly heal all of us who suffer with mental illness and/or substance abuse problems. I'm so sad and angry. Usually I'm ok and but today it's triggering me big time 
__________________  Eat a live frog for breakfast every morning and nothing worse can happen to you that day! "Ask yourself whether the dream of heaven and greatness should be left waiting for us in our graves - or whether it should be ours here and now and on this earth.” Ayn Rand, Atlas Shrugged Bipolar type 2 rapid cycling DX 2013 - Seroquel 100 Celexa 20 mg Xanax .5 mg prn Modafanil 100 mg 
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Dec 19, 2016 at 02:59 PM
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I'm so sorry for your tragic loss... I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better. Try to take care of yourself today.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:04 PM
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 I'm sorry such a horrible thing happend to your grandson. Please do something extra special for yourself.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:05 PM
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I'm so sorry.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:07 PM
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I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:12 PM
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Really sorry for your loss, please post as much as you need to, we're here for you
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:17 PM
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I'm so sorry to hear about this. That is horrible. Please take care of yourself, especially during this difficult time. Post whenever you feel the need.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:20 PM
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 Thank you so much for kind replies. I'm in my jammies and going to try and take easy today.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:30 PM
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What a horrible thing to have happened to a sweet child...
Glad you are taking care of you today 
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:32 PM
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Sorry for your loss
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Dec 19, 2016 at 03:40 PM
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Today is the anniversary of my mother's funeral eight years ago, and now I grieve with you over the loss of your grandson.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 04:24 PM
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Sorry for your loss.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 04:54 PM
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Dec 19, 2016 at 04:56 PM
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I'm sorry for your loss. A year and a half ago I lost my husband to drug addiction (he overdosed on opiates). I understand that anniversaries are hard. Be kind to yourself. Do something nice for yourself today. Last year on the one year anniversary of his death I got a memorial tattoo. You don't have to do something that extreme but maybe treat yourself to some good chocolate or something you like to do.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 06:33 PM
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Sorry for your loss. Hope you have some self-care planned for the next few days.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 07:38 PM
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So sorry for your loss!! Hugs
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Dec 19, 2016 at 08:07 PM
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That's awful. I'm so sorry.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 10:52 PM
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How tragic. I'm so sorry.
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Dec 19, 2016 at 11:28 PM
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Hugs to you- very sorry for your loss and how difficult this day (and many others, I imagine) must be for you because of his death
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Dec 20, 2016 at 05:01 AM
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That must be so tough to deal with. Sending love and hugs.x
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