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Trig Dec 19, 2016 at 01:49 PM
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Hi y'all, I'm having a really stressful day. 2 years ago today my mentally ill 24 year old grandson (addicted to opioids also) was murdured in an act of drug related violence. He was dealing drugs and a competing drug dealer bashed his brains out with a fire place poker.

I hate mental illness, I hate drug abuse. I wish I could wave a magic wand and instantly heal all of us who suffer with mental illness and/or substance abuse problems. I'm so sad and angry. Usually I'm ok and but today it's triggering me big time

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I'm so sorry for your tragic loss... I wish there was something I could do or say to make it better. Try to take care of yourself today.

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I'm sorry such a horrible thing happend to your grandson. Please do something extra special for yourself.

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I'm so sorry.

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I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself.

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Default Dec 19, 2016 at 03:12 PM
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Really sorry for your loss, please post as much as you need to, we're here for you
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I'm so sorry to hear about this. That is horrible. Please take care of yourself, especially during this difficult time. Post whenever you feel the need.
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Thank you so much for kind replies. I'm in my jammies and going to try and take easy today.

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What a horrible thing to have happened to a sweet child...
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Sorry for your loss

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Today is the anniversary of my mother's funeral eight years ago, and now I grieve with you over the loss of your grandson.

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Default Dec 19, 2016 at 04:24 PM
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Sorry for your loss.

All the things addiction destroys, in so many ways, It's awful.

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Today is the anniversary of my mother's funeral eight years ago, and now I grieve with you over the loss of your grandson.
So sorry, deepest sympathies

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Default Dec 19, 2016 at 04:56 PM
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I'm sorry for your loss. A year and a half ago I lost my husband to drug addiction (he overdosed on opiates). I understand that anniversaries are hard. Be kind to yourself. Do something nice for yourself today. Last year on the one year anniversary of his death I got a memorial tattoo. You don't have to do something that extreme but maybe treat yourself to some good chocolate or something you like to do.

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Sorry for your loss. Hope you have some self-care planned for the next few days.
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So sorry for your loss!! Hugs

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That's awful. I'm so sorry.

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How tragic. I'm so sorry.
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Default Dec 19, 2016 at 11:28 PM
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Hugs to you- very sorry for your loss and how difficult this day (and many others, I imagine) must be for you because of his death
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That must be so tough to deal with. Sending love and hugs.x

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