[Element87]

Hi everyone, I have a high change I'm bipolar. I've been diagnosed with Anxiety and depression since I've been an adult it's just gotten worse. Unfortunately since I have horrible insurance and copay I haven't been able to go into an psychiatrist in years, I do have an intake with a clinic that is doing to make payment arrangements with me but not for another 5 weeks .

But my ups and downs have been horrible. Some weeks I am very depressed then others I'm just very agitated like if someone cuts me off on the road I'd like to follow them to their house and slash their tires. I wouldn't because I'm not insane but I have the inkling at times. I'm just wondering from other people who suffer from bipolar if they felt the same way. A little bit about my background I am a 31 year old girl. I have 2 sisters diagnosed with bi polar with type 1 one with type 2. Right now I am on some meds for my anxiety and depression I am on Buspar wellbutrin Topamax tizanadine maxalt. thanks for any replies

[Skeezyks]

Hello Element87: Well... I've never been diagnosed as being Bipolar, although this has been suggested to me as one possibility by one psychiatrist I saw. Personally I'm pretty-much always angry at everything & everyone. That's about all I can say.

This appears to be your first post here on PC. So... to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! May the time you spend here be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!

[bizi]

welcome element87
pull up and chair, use a search to help locate past threads of questions that you may have.
good luck in this journey.
some people take benadryl to help with anxiety issues or to sleep.
How are you sleeping?
bizi

[Wander]

Welcome! Agitation and irritability can certainly come with hypo/mania but other symptoms must be present too for the diagnosis to be made. We can't tell you if you're BP but hopefully the psychiatrist your seeing in 5 weeks will be able to help you. Something certainly is going on to make you so full of rage and agitation even while on those meds. Hopefully a med change will help calm things down. In the meantime keep posting here if you want to and do all you can to restrain yourself rom acting on your impulses. This is a very supportive site. Do you have a therapist? I find mine is equally as helpful as meds in treating my illnesses.

[Nammu]

Hello and
There are quizzes on this site you can take, print out the results and take with you to the intake if it helps.