[MtnTime2896]

With all I have in me, I'm still fighting
Yet, I stand here before you dying
If I say I'm doing fine, then I'm a liar
Because between you and me, my situation's become dire
You can feel the melancholy within this choir
But nobody can seem to tear my heart away from the fire

I still bargain and I still actively plan
All my strength has been spent to stand
The desire to fall to my knees
Like a refugee's drowned out pleas
No one seems to care about my wounds
The darkness moves, the demon looms
To take me back into his jaws
To tear my soul away with his claws

With all I do, why has nothing changed?
What do I have left in life to rearrange?
Please tell me, so I can finally say
I have found a certain way
To crawl from under the weight of this nightmare
So I can look at my reflection boldly dare to care
About what I see there and the crosses they bare.

Please, someone hear my voice
Let me stop crying and rejoice
One day, that I'm awake and alive
Let it be beauty and hope, I can contrive
Instead of a chorus of melancholy agony
Let me love the heart of me
Instead of hiding it away so I can't see
Who I am and what I want to be.

I stay away from the mirror to avoid my fear
I can't stand the image I see here
I can turn away or I can change the image
Open my suitcase and rapidly rummage
Through my present and days past
Searching for a future beyond the cast
Of my actions shadow, for all of my shallow
Assumptions and poisonous consumption
Of my minds sadistic presumption
On every day I spend breathing and repeating
My attempt to cease my receding
Will to survive and strive
For greatness, if only to feel fully alive

With all I do, why has nothing changed?
What do I have left in life to rearrange?
Please tell me, so I can finally say
I have found a certain way
To crawl from under the weight of this nightmare
So I can look at my reflection boldly dare to care
About what I see there and the crosses they bare.

[bad4yourKarma]

I like it

[Wander]

That is beautiful but I can feel your sadness. Many, many hugs