[Naynay99]

Hey. I have been reading lots of posts by people on here who seem to be struggling. So I wanted to send out some positive thoughts and hugs out into the universe for those of you who need it. I have not been on here very long, but have met some really kind people who seem to understand or at least tolerate some of the ****ed-upedness that goes on in my head. Thanks for that.

But while it is reassuring to realize I am not alone, it pains my heart to realize how many people out there are struggling as I have. It's like we are all walking around out there in the world wounded and pretending not to be.

The inherent goodness of most of humanity, the sound of cats purring, the taste of hot coffee, reading a book I can't put down, singing along to a great song, getting brain freeze from eating ice cream too fast, and the feeling you get when you laugh so hard your stomach aches all gives me hope though that the world doesn't actually suck.

Anyway, this is just a pointless post where I think I am trying to convince myself of that fact. As I sit here amid my messy house and undone chores and broken brain I am trying to remember how ****ing awesome life felt a few weeks ago. All the plans I had and adventures I wanted to take. Yet I sit here in my own filth, not motivated to even take a shower or change my clothes today. I allow myself only a few minutes of fantasizing about breaking up with life before I shut those thoughts down... Alone with my aloneness and unable to keep to my own plan of tabling all feelings of crap and agony until Sunday evening. Sigh. I will say that i am glad to be here, even if it does kind of suck being me sometimes.

Anyway, sending lots of positive vibes through the universe to all of you tonight. Keep fighting the good fight and taking names and kicking some ***. You are all rock stars in my book.

[MatBell]

Thanks so much. I need it today

[TishaBuv]

Life doesn't suck, and it's sure better than the alternative!

Even when I'm in my darkest depression, I see the beauty of the world.

Look at the miracle of this Internet forum. People exchanging ideas and support anonymously all over the world. So cool!

[wiretwister]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

Hey. I have been reading lots of posts by people on here who seem to be struggling. So I wanted to send out some positive thoughts and hugs out into the universe for those of you who need it. I have not been on here very long, but have met some really kind people who seem to understand or at least tolerate some of the ****ed-upedness that goes on in my head. Thanks for that.

But while it is reassuring to realize I am not alone,

Anyway, this is just a pointless post where I think I am trying to convince myself of that fact ...

. Alone with my aloneness ...

Sigh. I will say that i am glad to be here, even if it does kind of suck being me sometimes.

Anyway, sending lots of positive vibes through the universe to all of you tonight. Keep fighting the good fight and taking names and kicking some ***. You are all rock stars in my book.

I think you are a "rock star " in my book too ... thank you for such an honest post ... hope is all some of us have ... supporting each other ... encouraging us to keep going foward even when our life "sucks" ... and you will never be alone here ... and we are very glad you are here ... thank you for the honest love ... I really needed it ... Tigger.

[hopeless2015]

Thank you nay nay, sending love and hugs your way!

[leejosepho]

Originally Posted by Naynay99

... I will say that i am glad to be here, even if it does kind of suck being me sometimes...

Same here, and I offer some positive thoughts back to you. A customer in my cab many years ago called me pathetic, but "Run whatcha brung" is all I can ever do and he was in my cab because his license had been revoked for DUI. I sometimes go for a week or two here in my chair without taking a shower, but our water bill is much less than the neighbor's...

[Unrigged64072835]

You're right; life doesn't suck all the time. There is hope. (((((Naynay99)))))