[RainyDay107]

I cycled into a bad mixed episode. They are horrible.

If anyone can post a ray of hope or support, I'd be grateful.

[sirainbowpokemon]

I have had many mixed episodes. My suicide attempts I've had have all been from mixed episodes, never severe depression. I feel for you. I know latuda and geodon are approved for mixed episodes. I've found practicing mindfulness can really help! Oh, and exercise. Which both are really boring, but if you try 5 minutes of each it really does help. And if things get really bad, sometimes screaming in a pillow works for me. Just know that this too shall pass. Go to the zoo or humane society and hug a puppy or kitten. Sometimes I find making a list of little things to do while mixed manic can really help. Call as many friends and family as you need to to get through this. I've been through mixed episodes many times and you will have to find some coping mechanisms that work for you. Sending you hugs!!

[Victoria'smom]

It'll pass.

[benzenering]

I was in the worst mixed state of my life two months ago. Took this long for the meds to kick in but I am finally feeling better, albeit a slow process. I hope it passes for you soon, glam. Hugs.

[hypomaniac-eric]

Originally Posted by glamslam

I cycled into a bad mixed episode. They are horrible.

If anyone can post a ray of hope or support, I'd be grateful.

Sending you hugs

[hypomaniac-eric]

I had a bad one last Friday and had a bad outburst of yelling and cussing. I still feel ashamed about it.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by hypomaniac-eric

I had a bad one last Friday and had a bad outburst of yelling and cussing. I still feel ashamed about it.

No shame. Seriously. I understand, though. My therapist got me through letting go of shame. I felt it early in my diagnosis.

[hypomaniac-eric]

Originally Posted by glamslam

No shame. Seriously. I understand, though. My therapist got me through letting go of shame. I felt it early in my diagnosis.

Thanks. Hope we get better.

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by hypomaniac-eric

Thanks. Hope we get better.

We definitely will get better. That's the nature of bipolar disorder, it's not stagnant. I always remember that things WILL improve. It keeps me going. Hopefully sooner than later.

I'm at my partner's/boyfriend's house. I got out of bed and watered a lemon tree he planted for me. It was a special, nice surprise as I love lemons.

I feel a little better. Movement. I'm going to do something else soon. See what happens next. Mindfulness is effortless right now, it's strange. I think it's because I feel dead inside.

[hypomaniac-eric]

I can't wait for the weather to get nice again so I can do yard work and gardening and birdwatching.

[xRavenx]

(((hugs))) Mixed manic states are absolutely horrible. This will pass with time, and support is important, which you will always have here.

[Wild Coyote]

(((((( Glamslam ))))))

Hope you feel better soon.


WC

[Unrigged64072835]

(((((Glamslam)))))

Hope you get through it soon.

[Wander]

I am in a mixed state too. Awful place to be. I hope they pass soon. HUGS!

[RainyDay107]

I feel horrible. The IP med changes messed me up. I literally thought, "I wonder if this is what it feels like to 'go off meds' and have a bad result." My pdoc changed my meds back last Friday, fortunately, with some tweaks for insomnia. Now it's undoing the damage and waiting for my meds to start working.

I can't keep track of the days, time isn't conceptual. I showered. I need to eat. I'm extremely non-functional.

I had to postpone my T appointment to Friday. I cannot talk succinctly. I feel unintelligent or perhaps learning disabled, which I'm not. For some reason my PTSD has gone off the charts, I'm so symptomatic. I've never felt this way.

My OCD was also way out of control with ruminating thoughts - bad ones. That is slowing down, it's scary and exhausting. I'm used to being able to apply DBT skills.

I cognitively am just not able to right now. It's the mixed episode combined with massive, inappropriate med drops. I went to a mood unit for severe insomnia. I left in a haze and in Klonopin withdrawal, plus I'd contracted a severe chest infection from hospital germs. I slept one hour the night I was discharged.

I cannot read, which is a bummer. I was fine before! That's my before bedtime hobby.

I am worried but I suppose I'll get better. I've been through more mixed episodes than I care to count, it's my predominant mood state, I'm an ultra rapid cycler.

My gratitude is the fact I'm not psychotic. This sucks.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

When I am mixed I can't read much but I can read children's books. I love the LIttle house books and will read them over and over. The last time I was IP I took them (I have 2 volume set) and since I was too sick to leave my room or understand anything I just read the same things repeatedly. I think some nurses were confused that I could read until they saw what I was reading and I explained I know the books practically word by word.

Can you find something like that, simple and soothing and see if you can read that a bit? It may help with sleep.

[Victoria'smom]

You should have gone to T she needs to see you like this to help you.

Hopefully the meds kick in soon.

[graystreet]

I had one of the worst mixed states of my life last August (and was finally definitively dx with bipolar disorder which I suppose is the good thing about it). What helped keep me from going off the rails before I was finally given the correct dx and put on the correct meds was meditation. Even just 5 minutes here and there. It was hard, but because of the nature of my job, I had to do something to center myself before going to work every day. I feel like someone else mentioned mindfulness. It does still help when I have smaller episodes now. I also try to focus on the fact that nothing is forever, that how I feel isn't forever. It never, ever is...just feels like it.

Edit: I just read your post above and I know that "meditation" is hard when you're feeling like you can't focus. I would sometimes just put a YouTube video on of a burning candle (they have a LOT of different meditation-style videos on there) and focus on that and breathing to get my mind sort of centered. It wasn't the magic pill, but it helped a little.

[Theresa1991]

I had a bad mixed Weekend two weeks ago. I prayed to got that he let me die (I don't believe in god, but for a few hours I did).

I had a way longer one in November and I started cutting again for weeks, which I hadn't done in years. Being mixed to me is pure despair.

The good Thing, that I kept telling me as soon as i knew what it was, is that it will pass. And it will. Sending lots of hope to you!

[RainyDay107]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

You should have gone to T she needs to see you like this to help you.

Hopefully the meds kick in soon.

I'm glad I waited. We have a solid therapy plan. I'm excited. I rambled in the "check in" thread, lol. I'm motivated.

[ComfortablyNumb5]

I'm a rapid cycler and my mania or mixed consists of extreme anger and anxiety. I started lamictal a few months ago and haven't had an episode once!

[Theresa1991]

Mixed is the ****ing worst. I feel for you. I had two so far (or might not have been Aware of the others). What helps for me is remembering that it is in fact an Episode. It does not reflect reality. Hang in there. Hugs!

[RainyDay107]

Day 2, zero sleep. Exhausted with bad body load. Maybe it will help me sleep.

Please send sleep vibes my way, I'd appreciate it. xo

[Wander]

Originally Posted by glamslam

Day 2, zero sleep. Exhausted with bad body load. Maybe it will help me sleep.

Please send sleep vibes my way, I'd appreciate it. xo

Sorry you are not sleeping. Sending sleep vibes! Do you have any PRN that will help? I know how quickly things can slide out of control if you don't sleep at all. Keep us posted.

[*Laurie*]

How are you, glam?