[ComfortablyNumb5]

I guess you can call it paranoia or just obsessive over situations in my head. Thing is, I'm stable. Or does this have nothing to do with BP at all? Well this happens over a lot of things but today all I could imagine was my bf cheating or breaking up with me. That's just one subject. Now in the back of my mind I know he's not cheating. He leaves his phone out and I see it. On his days off we're literally together 24/7. He leaves for work on time and gets home on time. And then I imagine him leaving me for my MI or someone else down the road. I'm embarrassed to admit this but today when I was driving I thought "what if he leaves me for my younger, cooler sister who has everything going for her when I'm sick in the head and a pain to deal with?" Is that not friggin sick to think that??? Like I said, that's just an example. I get like this over a lot of topics.

[Victoria'smom]

I'm like that too. Right now I'm stable but messed up scizoaffective was mentioned in my case but I think BPD could cause those thoughts too. If I remember right you have BPD dx?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by Miguel'smom

I'm like that too. Right now I'm stable but messed up scizoaffective was mentioned in my case but I think BPD could cause those thoughts too. If I remember right you have BPD dx?

Yes and I agree it could be BPD and fear of rejection and abandonment. Makes a lot of sense now. So nothing but DBT will help my train of thinking but I can't commit to this program at my T's because you can only miss 2 days out of the whole year and meet twice a week. Hah I can't even afford that in gas. I did look at "BPD for dummies" on amazon awhile back.