 |
| FAQ/Help |
| Calendar |
| Search |
|
#1
May 10, 2017, 01:31 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Possible trigger:
I was here. I became it. I was an activist. 1-2-3-4 what are we fighting for? The passion exudes me from my fingers to my toes. I write this with shaky fingers. Open up the pearly gates. I know I am this song. This song and Me and Bobby McGee and Monday Monday and The Beat goes on. I own them. They are me...the dancing just comes. I can feel it in my bones. I eat it. I suck it in and inhale. I drink it and it seeps from my skin. It is me. It is me. It is mine. I can't buy anything. Nothing at all. And I want it. I want to own the 60's. I want to own the war. I want to own the clothes. I want to own the drugs. I want to own the activism. It is me. It is me. I just want to buy it.
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
 Anonymous59125, jacky8807, MtnTime2896, Sunflower123, Wild Coyote
|
|
#2
May 10, 2017, 01:39 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I know those manic feelings quite well. and how good they feel
just be careful ok? wouldn't want to see anything happen to you. what's going on with pdoc these days?
__________________
I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#3
May 10, 2017, 01:45 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!Bobby Baby kept me from the cold.
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#4
May 10, 2017, 01:45 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Tomorrow
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#5
May 10, 2017, 01:47 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
IMHO it's time to call your doc.
__________________
Meds: Latuda, Lamictal XR, Vyvanse, Seroquel, Klonopin Supplements: Monster Energy replacement.  Also DLPA, tyrosine, glutamine, and tryptophan
|
| Wild Coyote
|
 Wild Coyote
|
|
#6
May 10, 2017, 01:50 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Yeah. Please call your doctor.
__________________
The darkest of nights is followed by the brightest of days. 😊 - anonymous The night belongs to you. 🌙- sleep token "What if I can't get up and stand tall, What if the diamond days are all gone, and Who will I be when the Empire falls? Wake up alone and I'll be forgotten." 😢 - sleep token |
| Wild Coyote
|
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#7
May 10, 2017, 01:51 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Seeing her every week at least. Tomorrow.
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#8
May 10, 2017, 01:52 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
Quote:
Quote:
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#9
May 10, 2017, 01:54 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
are you really taking the meds as prescribed?
I only ask because once I'm in that state I don't take them because I like how I'm feeling
__________________
I used to rule the world Seas would rise when I gave the word Now in the morning, I sleep alone Sweep the streets I used to own I used to roll the dice Feel the fear in my enemy's eyes Listen as the crowd would sing Now the old king is dead! Long live the king! One minute I held the key Next the walls were closed on me And I discovered that my castles stand Upon pillars of salt and pillars of sand |
| Wild Coyote
|
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#10
May 10, 2017, 01:56 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| jacky8807, Wild Coyote
|
|
#11
May 10, 2017, 02:20 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Speaking of my husband and my meds, last night he had me take a klonapin so I'd sleep. Wouldn't that PISS you off?
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#12
May 10, 2017, 02:42 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
)
__________________
Meds: Latuda, Lamictal XR, Vyvanse, Seroquel, Klonopin Supplements: Monster Energy replacement. Also DLPA, tyrosine, glutamine, and tryptophan
|
| Wild Coyote
|
| jacky8807
|
|
#13
May 10, 2017, 02:51 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Quote:
|
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#14
May 10, 2017, 02:59 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Sending you lots of hugs. I watched the Rock and Roll hall of fame recently. I watched because Pearl Jam was inducted and they are my favorite band of all time. I'd never heard of Joan Baez and she was inducted. She was a folk artist and folk is probably my favorite overall genre. She was an activist and overall spectacular person. She exudes beauty from her core. What an interesting time the 60's were. I was not born....I didn't see it or live it but I experienced the aftershock. The 70's. It wasn't the same. Such change transpired in the 60's....truly a new era. I stand with the soldiers and with the protestors. I stand for love. I stand with you Cash. Please be kind to yourself. I hope you are in steady contact with your doctors at this time. (((Hugs)))
|
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#15
May 10, 2017, 03:02 PM
|
|||
|
|||
|
Quote:
|
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#16
May 10, 2017, 03:47 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
I do know he means well and I know I am giving him hell and everyone else who is wonderfully trying to take care of me but I am so sad I could cry about all of the privileges I have lost. I feel lost. Recently my pdoc pushed my klonapin up to 6 mg as needed anyway and I have only taken it when I have found myself severely agitated. And I have wanted to lay out my mom which is crazy awful because she is so amazing to me. I SCREAMED at my entire family on either sat or sun because they tried to rain on my parade. I have been losing it right and left. I am discussing this with my pdoc tomorrow though. I was sure to make a list and I am inviting mom in when I'm done for the things I have missed. I am afraid I will end up hospitalized but I'm not certain. I just know this has gotten WAY out of control.
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
|
#17
May 10, 2017, 03:52 PM
|
||||
|
||||
|
Quote:
__________________
***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
| Wild Coyote
|
| Reply |
This is an old thread. You probably should not post your reply to it, as the original poster is unlikely to see it.|
|
My Support Forums is the online community that was originally begun as the Psych Central Forums in 2001. It now runs as an independent self-help support group community for mental health, personality, and psychological issues and is overseen by a group of dedicated, caring volunteers from around the world.
Linear Mode
