[dog daze]

I want to be a normal person who can wake up, be motivated and productive and accomplish tasks without a constant battle with myself. Everyone thinks I'm just lazy. But I am so depleted after teaching all week that I can not do simple chores on the weekend. All I want to do is sleep on the weekends. I get so critical of my self and feel guilty for all the things I don't get done. I pray for guidance and energy, but I can't seem to get out of myself.

I relate but I don't have a job. Everything overwhelms me and makes me go to deep dark places when I'm in self deprivation mode. Please go easy on yourself and don't beat yourself up. Working all week is just too hard for some of us and impossible to have anything left over at times. Instead of beating yourself up, pat yourself on the back for getting through the work week. Is getting some help with chores possible? Hiring a house cleaner to come in at least once a month for the hard core scrubbing could do wonders. If I ever go to work again, I would need s house keeper and wish I'd have gotten one while working before cause I could have afforded it and it would have freed up my weekends for more rest which is what I needed most while working. (((Hugs)))

[Wild Coyote]

It's amazing you can teach all week!
Give yourself credit for that!

Are you feeling depressed or feeling stable?
You may just be tired from the week of work?

I am feeling overwhelmed by depression. It paralyzes me.
I've pretty much had the weekend to myself and have accomplished nothing. I don't want to move.

What good does it do to judge ourselves or to feel guilty?
These types of thoughts just overwhelm me even more.

Do what you can do when you can do it.
Be in touch with your pdoc and/or T if they might help you.
Practice self-compassion.
I hope you feel better soon!

WC