[boogiesmash]

So I'm off today from work and I had plans to go see my mom who lives an hour away. I woke up around 7 after taking an ambien the prior night and felt tired. I set my alarm for 930 then. Then 1030. Finally I thought I'll just go see her late. I still couldn't get out of bed till 11. Then I started becoming anxious of the drive up there. I then thought well lets not go and I'll call her later. I stayed in bed till around 2 and went to the gym. I got home and yup back to bed messing around with my iPad and texting my friend seeing if I'm depressed and don't know it. From 3 and on I felt bad and was super anxious and guilty for not going to see my mom. I still feel this way now at 1132 pm. I just came home from the gym (second time I went today) and still feel bad about it.

Why am I so attached to my bed. I barely watch tv or utilize the rest of my house. Why do I go from feeling different every day. I miss my mom and won't be able to see her for a few weeks. Am I a bad person?

[glowsinthedark]

you're not a bad person!! sounds like you had a bad day. whenever i take anything sedating it really messes with me for like 48 hours afterwards...even just something like dramamine. do you think the ambien/sleeping in is having a depressive effect on you?

I totally relate to feeling guilty about family stuff, but I bet your mom understands and you'll see her in a few weeks and today won't even matter. We humans tend to forget that people's worlds don't revolve around us - that our presence generally doesn't make or break their day - which takes some pressure off.

Also, you went to the gym TWICE ?!?!?! I would be celebrating

[boogiesmash]

Originally Posted by glowsinthedark

you're not a bad person!! sounds like you had a bad day. whenever i take anything sedating it really messes with me for like 48 hours afterwards...even just something like dramamine. do you think the ambien/sleeping in is having a depressive effect on you?

I totally relate to feeling guilty about family stuff, but I bet your mom understands and you'll see her in a few weeks and today won't even matter. We humans tend to forget that people's worlds don't revolve around us - that our presence generally doesn't make or break their day - which takes some pressure off.

Also, you went to the gym TWICE ?!?!?! I would be celebrating

Thanks for the reply. I made a separate post about ambien. I think I'm abusing/self medicating with it. I have to reevaluate how I take it, cause sometimes I really do need it.

The funny thing about going to the gym twice was that it was unintentional. I haven't gone to the gym twice in one day in years. It did feel good and is a good start toward my goal. Trying to be fit by September (august too to hit the beach) for this Muay Thai seminar that I always wanted to go to. I need to get back to it soon since I also haven't done it in about a year regularly.