[ComfortablyNumb5]

I think back to any time... 6 months or so. I was a totally different person. And even from years ago I see it. It seems as when my meds changed, so do I. Like a few months ago I got crazy obsessed with adult coloring books. I'm talking 500 markers and 5 books. Id sit in bed for hours coloring. But now, I find it so boring. Like I need a new thrill. But when I Associate these changes I think of my personality disorder (BPD). Maybe that's why? I start a project and within a week I'm bored as ****.

So bottom line, do you change your likes, personalities, developed new annoyances etc. when I compare myself to 6 months ago I'm ashamed. But it still brings about old feelings that make me embarrassed AF. I just want to know if anyone else feels these changing emotions and likes? I mean, to the point you don't even know who you were back then. And you don't want to know

[Icare dixit]

Yes. Unstable personality, morals and values/interests. Aspects of mania (the change) and depression (the dissociation, shame/unease and regret). Just three ways "borderline" is accurate: borderline borderlines, dissociations, and dissociation from oneself in general, totally, emptiness and alienation from oneself.

There's one split separating the neurotic from the psychotic and the psychotic is naturally changing (focus) and both are mixed.

[Unrigged64072835]

I have hobbies and interests come and go. I still have stuff in my home office from projects I took on and then set aside. I also do mass buying sprees for projects. I think the excitement from starting something lets loose a bunch of chemicals that fade away once it's been done awhile.

Right now I'm in a low, so stuff that interested me is getting pushed to the side.

When I'm unwell I enjoy doing some silly things sometime, yes. But mostly my personality is reasonably stable and I tend to like the same kinds of things now that I did in childhood even. im so sorry you feel so badly and embarrassed about all this. It must be very difficult and confusing for you.

[Wild Coyote]

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[Ripose]

Originally Posted by RxQueen875

So bottom line, do you change your likes, personalities, developed new annoyances etc. when I compare myself to 6 months ago I'm ashamed. But it still brings about old feelings that make me embarrassed AF. I just want to know if anyone else feels these changing emotions and likes? I mean, to the point you don't even know who you were back then. And you don't want to know

I am constantly changing what I like and the things I work on. A few years ago I got 3/4 through writing a novel then I suddenly lost interest even though the writing was great and very well researched. I feel ashamed/embarrassed about giving up on it. There are many many more things I have given up on.
My emotions are always changing too and there is no reason for this to happen.
I have the memory of a goldfish I think, so it does not help matters.

[xRavenx]

While I do have some hobbies and things I love that will always stay with me, I feel I definitely go through personality changes. Also, sometimes I will get super into a specific hobby when manic, where it isn't as obsessive when I'm not hypo/manic. Lately, I blurt things out more, and things annoy me a lot more than usual. For instance, family is especially annoying, whereas things were a lot better a few months ago....and it's hard to even hold back. I end up blowing up.

[Icare dixit]

Who has these problems when not (more or less) manic?

It's definitely a BPD thing, but to what extent is it also a BP thing (more or less) unrelated to mania?

Each of us (with BP) has two or three personalities, I'd say, but what about irrespective of (severe) mood changes?

[ComfortablyNumb5]

Originally Posted by xRavenx

While I do have some hobbies and things I love that will always stay with me, I feel I definitely go through personality changes. Also, sometimes I will get super into a specific hobby when manic, where it isn't as obsessive when I'm not hypo/manic. Lately, I blurt things out more, and things annoy me a lot more than usual. For instance, family is especially annoying, whereas things were a lot better a few months ago....and it's hard to even hold back. I end up blowing up.

Exactly! I was really into adult coloring books to keep myself busy. I swear I have 100 markers. Then one day I just didn't like it anymore. Also, the games on my phone... I was obsessed with them for years. Now I haven't signed into them in probably 3 months. And this was the time I started lamictal and Wellbutrin.

[HALLIEBETH87]

It's one of the few bpd traits I still exhibit.