Suicidal without depression?

Is that really a thing? I'm trying to figure out what's wrong or if I'm just being destructive. I have everything and can't figure out why or how I want out. I'm not stressed. I don't think I'll do anything. I have to figure this out so the thoughts go away. I know the thoughts are wrong right now but I don't know how long I'll realize that.

I've had suicidal ideation both inside and outside of episodes.

Suicidal ideation because I'm bored; suicidal ideation when manic b/c I want to be the female Jesus and come back to life 3 days later

I got this second hand, but I believe it. A survey was done at a high overlook and roughly half the people who stood at the rail thought about what it would be like to step off the edge. Not planning to, just thinking about what it would be like. I know I do in that situation or similar ones. I have no plans to do it. I have a very strong survival instinct and have never made plans but I have thought about what it would be like; what must go through someone's head while falling from a great height.

How do you get rid of them then?

I just tell my self its the MI talking and that it's not real. It doesn't always help but sometimes it does.

I get this. I still T think about overdosing and I'm stable.

I have major issues with this. At least for me, I just get so tired of living with my illness. Even though I may be doing ok, I always know it's just a matter of time before I'm back in hell.

I've had SI and not been depressed. I know it doesn't add up but there it is.

I keep thinking they'll never expect it now. I remind myself my nieces's birthday soon and I don't want to cloud her birthday with that.

I've had SI without depression.

I've had them when not depressed. It can unsettle me sometimes, but usually I'll just let it go.