[JanusunaJ]

I really try not to hate and I try to avoid language that purveys hate. I'm not perfect, of course, and there is no doubt that there are some things that I do hate and through my language and behavior that feeling is exhaled.

One thing that I do hate, unabashedly, is my shadow passenger. It is the villain that espouses and whispers and screams "it was a pleasure to burn" as it watches the blaze it's set to my aspirations and ideology.

Last night, while asleep, it seems to have set another fire, but this time in a closed room, a room where I'd begun to rebuild, giving some semblance, even if only minuscule, to laying a foundation, it set the fire and closed the door. The room and everything inside was lit to become an inferno, but the oxygen was quickly consumed and only embers remained. But then I opened that door when I awakened and the life-giving oxygen cascaded in, but before I could clearly see the danger, that oxygen was sucked up by those embers in a thunderous fashion and the blaze was reborn almost instantaneously, savagely eating the remainder of my room's contents.

My shadow wanted me to see it burn.

Now, there is this sad doubt. I believe that I can rebuild, but there are these nagging interjections from my shadow passenger: "Don't trust anyone..." and "Who in the h3ll do you think you are? You'll always fail."

[Wild Coyote]

These "nagging interjections" look like core beliefs.
It's important to identify core beliefs and then to challenge them.

I also believe you can rebuild.


WC

[Sunflower123]

I believe you can rebuild and cut this shadow passenger down to size as well.