[HALLIEBETH87]

What causes them??????!!!!!

So two days ago was ten years since my dad died. I was upset about something earlier but got over it. Then out of nowhere I get a flashback about my dad being beaten. I could hear his screams in my head like I did as a child laying in bed at night. I didn't do anything to help. I was scared. I didn't know what to do and felt so helpless. Why didn't he take us and leave? I kept hearing the yells and I was ugly crying hard. Then the derealization set in and I was so disconnected for idk how long. I'm just now feeling somewhat normal. I hate this. If I feel like this on a random day how will I do with EMDR?!

Sorry to hear that.

Can you talk with your therapist about your concern with doing EMDR? Maybe he or she can help guide you. Otherwise, I have no advice. Sorry. I just think a therapist has a lot of experience and could help you decide whether or not to do EMDR. I would hate to see you get triggered even worse, if that's what could happen.

[HALLIEBETH87]

I see him next Monday. I have written several questions down to ask him then. I'm tired of dealing with this crap. I'm getting mad at PTSD.