[stopchewinggum]

Long story short, I've had schizo related diagnosis for years. Pretty much every pdoc has given the same diagnosis. Then, after all these years I've started having manic episodes that won't quit. Bipolar runs on my dad's side. Schizophrenia runs on my mom's. The pdoc decide to start me on depakote. At this point I don't care about the diagnosis. I just want to be able function.

After, an incident at work, I'm not allowed to go back until the pdoc assures them I'm well. It was a really good job too, but I have my doubts my pdoc will write a letter for me. At least, my therapist gave me a break. She told me I was acting dangerously, and she didn't want me taking myself home. In the end she relented. Lucky break?

As for now, I feel like a magical unicorn......with wings. What's a name for a pegasus with a horn?

I think I'd rather be depressed.

[99fairies]

Your mania should be very hard on you if you are wishing you would be depressed. Sorry you are having such a hard time.

[Tucson]

Hang in there!

[winter loneliness]

I believe your diagnosis is now schizoaffective disorder. Maybe that board will be helpful.

Originally Posted by stopchewinggum

I think I'd rather be depressed.

Be careful what you wish for.

How are you doing on the Depakote?

[stopchewinggum]

Originally Posted by Lefty the Salesman

Be careful what you wish for.

How are you doing on the Depakote?

The Depakote is okay I guess. I'm used to being to depressed. At least, I understand it.

[Shazerac]

If you are used to being depressed that may be your comfort zone. But like Lefty said...be careful what you wish for.

I haven't taken depacote so I don't know who soon it kicks in. I do know that they start out at a low does and gradually ramp it up. Maybe when you get at a higher dose it will help with the mania.