No doing so great. Mixed episode and auditory psychosis.

Just as the title said. I think I'm in a mixed episode and have been for just over a month now. Why?
My diet has gone out the window
I don't know what mood I'm in
My thoughts are racing and don't stop
My sleeping is screwed up
I keep hearing things at night mostly
Back to thinking i see spiders out of the corner of my eye
Spent ALL of last night awake being paranoid my best friend was going to do something (not saying what), so much so I feel broken physically today as I've not slept and I can't sleep because I know I'm messed up at the moment.
I feel like all my mates just tolerate me and would rather I wasn't there.
I don't believe my friends as far as our friendship truly is.
I think they are tired of me.
I think they hate that I'm not working and think I should be.
I want to cry but can't.
etc etc (I'll shut up now)...

I spoke with a on call nurse at the centre where my old pdoc (not under his care anymore as they discharged me)works and they spoke to him and said to up the Seroquel to try and get sleep and call back in a week to see how things are going.

I feel lost as to how I can help myself other than meds. This is not like me I am normally all over it as soon as I recognise something is wrong!

I’m sorry you’re having a tough time. Hopefully that Seroquel will work quickly and you’ll start feeling better. If you get worse, don’t hesitate to call them back even if it hasn’t been a week. Sending big hugs.

Thanks Jennifer, I took the higher dose last night and got some sleep well till 3am, but better than nothing ... i'll see how it all goes.