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Has anyone else had a manic phase from motivational speakers?
Last year, I had a months-long hypomanic phase that was fueled by motivational speakers. I primarily listened to Les Brown, Jim Rohn, and Tony Robbins. I was drawn into them because I started my own programming business, and a lot of entrepreneurs seem to feed off motivational speakers for inspiration. I went too far however. I listened to motivational speeches for hours a day. They were near-evangelical for me. I started to take their advice literally. They advocated things like working incessantly, taking big risks, and that riches were soon to come as a result. If the riches weren't coming, they would reason, "at least you gave it a shot." I also bought into the "Law of Attraction" meta-physical stuff associated with Scientology. This was reflected by daily Facebook posts quoting the speakers and me parroting their dogma. As a result, I dropped my primary programming business to focus on a real estate business. I used an intentional misspelling of my last name for the business name, because I thought it would "sound better over the phone." That then morphed into an identity crisis - I wanted to change my entire legal name, because I felt like I was a different, evolved, and improved person, compared to my old depressed self, something that Tony Robbins often advocates. I sunk about $8,000 into real estate classes and direct mail marketing in about 3-4 weeks. This $8,000 came from my checking and savings accounts, my self-employment income and sales tax savings, maxing out credit cards, and borrowing $1,000 from a friend. When the money ran out, and I was faced with the reality of filing bankruptcy, the manic phase ended, and I attempted suicide. I'm thankful to be in a safe place with family now, but it's been a long bumpy road since my attempt. Just curious if anyone else had a similar story. |
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