[MRT6211]

So it appears, or at least I was told by pdoc and T today, that everything I’ve been experiencing lately is mania. I had kind of suspected this but I didn’t want it to be true because I already have the diagnosis of BPD, MDD, and GAD, and I feel like there’s just so much wrong with me. They didn’t tell me that I’m diagnosed bipolar yet, but I was afraid to ask. I was prescribed Lamictal today (in addition to Wellbutrin and Hydroxyzine), a change from Remeron and Seroquel. This is my first try on a mood stabilizer after many failed attempts to control my racing thoughts and fluctuating moods with antipsychotics and antidepressants.

Basically over the past few weeks I’ve barely been sleeping (less than 4 hours a night) and I stopped taking my meds (I felt like seroquel and Remeron weren’t helping and instead were just making me gain a ton of weight). I relapsed with self-harm and also just felt like I was losing my freaking mind. I almost ended up inpatient again. My thoughts have been racing so bad that it’s making my head feel cloudy and making me forget simple things when usually I have an extraordinary memory. Life feels like it’s just not in my control right now. I even got in a conflict with my T and I’ve been constantly arguing with my boyfriend and flying off the handle at little things. It’s just been hell to deal with. I’ve only had one other period in my life, about 5 months ago, that I ever was this bad with symptoms like this. And during that period I ended up escaping for the hospital that I voluntarily inpatient at...(I literally have no explanation for why I did that. I was not myself.)

So I guess I’m here to vent a little and also to ask for help as someone who is new to these mania symptoms and possibly bipolar? How do you cope with symptoms? Have you had experience with Lamictal? Or the Lamictal and Wellbutrin combo? Any advice/insight is welcome! Thank you!

[Guiness187055]

I take lithium, lamictal, and wellbutrin. I love the combo on issue I have is I am kinda flat. Better than being depressed or manic though.

[Victoria'smom]

My husband and son are on lamictal, welbutrin and abilify it works when they take it.