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Old Dec 31, 2017, 08:00 PM
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This isn't necessarily bipolar related, but I'm comfortable here. So here goes. Deep breath.

I gave a baby up for adoption as a teenager (shes almost an adult now). Today is her birthday. When I placed her for adoption I struggled with mental health issues and I'm guilty of wondering if things would have been different had I been helped. My mom disowned me for my decision and I fell apart.

I still talk to my biological daughter and her family and even her biological dad. I say we have the most amazing adoption story ever.

That all said its like giving a piece of your heart away and the wound never heals. I never talk about her on new years because I'm afraid it will break me. I'm finally okay after 2 years of depression and mania and one big mess. I want to continue to be good and not let this day take me down.

If you could take 2 seconds for a hug, I could use it. Thanks for listening.

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Old Dec 31, 2017, 11:25 PM
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Thank you all. This day is almost over. Not a moment too soon.
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Old Dec 31, 2017, 11:50 PM
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You brought a life into the world. Any way you slice it, that's pretty amazing. I'm sorry for the way you're feeling, but keep this in mind.
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 12:00 AM
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You brought a life into the world. Any way you slice it, that's pretty amazing. I'm sorry for the way you're feeling, but keep this in mind.
Thank you for this. Sincerely.
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Sending you big and a very warm hug.
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Old Jan 01, 2018, 01:35 PM
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Thank you so much! Today is better. I made it through the hard day and its over for another year.

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Old Jan 09, 2018, 08:20 PM
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This isn't necessarily bipolar related, but I'm comfortable here. So here goes. Deep breath.

I gave a baby up for adoption as a teenager (shes almost an adult now). Today is her birthday. When I placed her for adoption I struggled with mental health issues and I'm guilty of wondering if things would have been different had I been helped. My mom disowned me for my decision and I fell apart.

I still talk to my biological daughter and her family and even her biological dad. I say we have the most amazing adoption story ever.

That all said its like giving a piece of your heart away and the wound never heals. I never talk about her on new years because I'm afraid it will break me. I'm finally okay after 2 years of depression and mania and one big mess. I want to continue to be good and not let this day take me down.

If you could take 2 seconds for a hug, I could use it. Thanks for listening.
Twice as many hugs for you, my good, good friend and another for good measure.
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