[bizi]

Well this is a first.
Today I had an hour to kill before my next client so decided to stop at this bar "fat pats" one block from my clients home to have a beer. They have 2 for 1 beers every day. They are 9-10 oz mugs.
So I started drinking and drank too much and ate a basket of fries and bought the guy next to me an expensive drink because it was his birthday,
and I wanted to talk to him for company.
Right at 4, I called my client and told her that I was ill and needed to cancel our appointment. I was tipsy and did not want to take the chance of cutting her. I safely drove home and went to bed.
woke up when hubby came home and lied said I was sick with a head something or other. Got up and felt better so preceded to make dinner.
Then we picked up a friend and went to a blue grass concert at the university.
Sigh
I see my therapist tomorrow morning...wondering if I will tell her.
many red flags, maybe I am hypo?
bizi

[Wild Coyote]

Hey there Bizi,

It sounds to me like you were enjoying yourself.
Does enjoying yourself while drinking usually mean you are experiencing hypo?
Does anything else make you question whether or not you are hypo?

I love you no matter what you are going through..
No judgement.


WC

[Raindropvampire]

No judgment here. If this has never happened before I'd tell my T just to try to figure out why it did happen this time. Maybe it is the start of hypo I hope you figure it out.

[salsharia]

I make descions like that often. I can totally relate to the snowball effect. It’s hard to say you are hyp without knowing more because that’s something that could happen in any state. I think!!.... I dunno

How are you feeling now?

[Shazerac]

Sounds like you got a bit carried away. Probably a good idea to at least mention it to your therapist.

Bizi - I hope you’re OK. Don’t be too hard on yourself

Glad you have the appointment tomorrow

[jacky8807]

I knew a guy from boston named "Fat Pat" back in the day in my punk era. He lived up to his name.
hope you feel better soon

[*Laurie*]

Keep us posted, bizi. Wish I could help you more, but most of the time I'm not sure myself whether I'm just me or if I'm hypo.

[Guiness187055]

I know with me the more I drank the more hypo I got. Finally leading up to full on mania with psychosis. Thats just me YMMV.

I'd be a hypocrite if I judged you. What you did certainly happens to some of us occasionally.

I used to be a heavy drinker before I accepted medications. My average was 8-12 drinks per night, with barely a real hangover. In fact, when I was hospitalized the first time they were even calling me an alcoholic, though in my particular case that proved to be untrue. I was very unstable for a long time and sometimes "slipped", but over time (and depending on the medication I was taking), even small amounts of alcohol had terrible physical effects on me, including blackouts (if I drank even as little as 4 or 5 drinks in a sitting). Even later I'd get upset stomachs and general malaise with even 1 drink consumed too quickly. It's really not worth it anymore. I don't get the real pleasure I used to get from it.

I do occasionally go to a bar and have a (1) beer. I guess I go enough that they occasionally offer me a second drink on the house, but I have to refuse it. Instead I've asked for a dessert as a replacement. Or the bartender I usually sees knows enough now that they just give me my one and only drink for free on those special occasions. The drinks at that pub you went to are comparitively small. That's good. Most all drinks in my local bars are "pints", which are really more like 12 oz. Some bars do offer "small" drinks that are maybe 8-10 oz. I usually get them. Do try to stick with just one from now on, if possible. After that beer, why don't you treat yourself to a dessert or coffee if you want to stay longer to chat up the person next to you.

[emgreen]

No judgement here. You usually do a good job controlling your drinking...unlike the way I used to! I'd watch out for driving when you drink, though. It can be both dangerous & costly!

[pirilin]

The Blue Grass Concert erases everything else.
I've been up in the Appalachians, chugging Shine and listening to the real thing. God Bless.

[Unrigged64072835]

Not judging you, hon. Slips happen. Pick yourself up and start over.

[bizi]

It was difficult but I went and talked about what happened with Robin, my T. She is non judgemental and I like her for that. I also respect her.WE have been seeing each other about a year and she has such a good memory. It amazes me what she remembers. Especially since I ramble a lot.
I told her that I wanted to try to make more friends, it is hard.
I have called and texted a friend/acquaintance and she is busy with her mom who just had surgery.
We decided that I was not hypo just dealing with addictions.
Sigh
bizi