Ip

So my therapist has suggested I consider and be willing to go inpatient but I really, really don't want to. I'm not suicidal or homicidal so he can't make me
Right??

I see him tomorrow. I called my dr on Friday and this morning because things are worse and I've not gotten a
Return call even though it's after 5pm.

I was sent home from work today because I was hallucinating

If you are not a harm to self and/or others and can take care of yourself, you should not be forced into IP.

I hope you hear from your pdoc.

Stay safe.


WC

I agree with WC.

Though do you think you could possibly be a harm to yourself/others in the near future if things grow worse? That could be why your therapist suggested IP. I'm not saying I agree with him or disagree with him, but I wonder if that's what he's thinking. Like a preventative measure, I guess?

Just got a call finally. He upped my haldol at night time
Dose

Idk because my therapist is always saying lets keep
You out of the hospital and working to help me stay home but now his first email reply he says I need to consider going

That's strange. I guess you could ask him to clarify why he thinks you should go to IP. It could be a misunderstanding on his part.

Halliebeth, you've been posting a lot about your hallucinations and delusions. You seem to be very involved with them. If you are still ruminating over them I believe that IP would be an excellent option for you at this point.

I'll talk to my therapist tomorrow if he brings it up but I really don't wanna go!

Yes, you seem like you are having a really hard time right now- maybe IP would make this all just a little easier and you can have a little rest.

It might just be a good idea. I understand not wanting to but- you seem like you are really struggling and it might just be for the best to be around people who will understand and just be able to help make this all a bit easier for you

I just admitted it to my
Sister what's going on.
I hope
I don't regret telling her

I'm
Just scared I'm gonna lose my
Job if I have to go ip and I can't afford that

The doc did adjust your meds in the call back right? Maybe it'll be enough. But you have to watch out for your safety as well, so be careful. Pulling for you!

My safety? I'm
Alone dog sitting and there's nothing to do here. Sounds safe.

Doesn’t the following statement that you made mean anything to you? Anything at all?

“I was sent home from work today because I was hallucinating”

If I were you, this would be a serious red flag for me. Your problems are beginning to interfere with your livelihood. Don’t you also think this has changed your relationship with others at work including your boss? If this continues after the med change, I think you should reconsider going IP. You cannot hold down a job this way anyways. I do not know what IOP is like, or who qualifies, but maybe that is a possibility?

I've been taking extra haldol
Already before he told me
To so ive been on this new
Dose
For three days

You think I need to go ip? I talked to my
Boss and it turns out I won't lose my
Job if I end up there.

I think if hallucinations keep happening despite the med asdjustment, thereby keeping you out of work, then I think you should seriously consider it. I think someone posted here that you have recently posted about both hallucinations and delusions. However, I think you should first consult you pdoc. He may think this last adjustment will work. But you need to get this handled ASAP no matter what you need to do to make this happen. A few days of IP may do this for you. As it stands, if the med adjustment does not work, you may very well be out of work for a period of time anyways. JMO

As a side note, there was one time several years ago when I was taking care of my mother 24/7/365. Due to a previous hospitalization, I promised myself that I would never again go IP. Anyways, this was a very overwhelming long period of time which lasted for several years. I was taking a very rare break at Denny’s. The best I can explain it is derealization happened. This made me very troubled after it was over with. Also my meds were not working for me very well. My hands also were shaking allot. I seriously considered going IP. Even friends who are against psychotropic meds told me that is what I should do. I needed to be functional. But the thought of having no one to take care of my mother while I am IP convinced me that I needed to stay out of the hospital. She needed specialized intensive care. But at the same time, I think that would of been the best for me to do, to go IP. If it would of become much worse, I would of called APS for a temporary placement solution, and then went IP. Keep in mind that I would of been risking the loss of the care of my mother by doing this. What is necessary is necessary.

PS I am results oriented. This is why I think this way.

My mind is just kinda muddled and things are confusing right now. Forgive me.

I've been taking a higher dose of haldol for four days and nothing has happened positively thus far. I see my therapist Tomorrow morning. He's the one suggesting I go. I'm
Just trying to really see if I should go.

Are you eating, sleeping, bathing? Are you driving? I know you don't want IP but the further this goes on the more likely you'll lose your job.

Halliebeth, I have added to my previous post. I thought it may help.

I eat some
But not much. I just now ate something. Some
Cheese and nuts. I try to sleep but it's
Broken.
I force myself to
At least wash my face and brush my teeth.
Yes I drive some.

I'll figure this out tomorrow when I see my t.

Thanks Tucson. I get derealization too when I'm psychotic. It's been happening a lot

From your signature line:

Just wondering if these hallucinations are normal for you. You list that you have psychotic features. normally. What are those?
bizi

Sometimes I get hallucinations and delusions but not very often. I'm not manic or depressed right now. Usually meds control it

My therapist called my dr and said he was worried and my dr increased my med again and said to come in tomorrow And see him. If things don't get better my
T wants me to go to the hospital.