[*Laurie*]

This has not been the worst week of my life by far. But it has been one of the most painful, stressful, and rotten weeks due to some people on Facebook who have bullied the ***** out of me. *Please don't recommend that I leave Fb; I have life-long friends there that I like to be in touch with. They had absolutely nothing to do with the HELL I went through this week.*

I had a beautiful, shiny, sunshiny, breezy, comfortably warm California day. I was a little manicky, but enjoying it. Then I came home to more crap on Fb. I broke. Could not take any more stress and ruminating over and over the words, words, words slammed against me. And I'll mention that the bullying truly was that: I, in no way, deserved such treatment.

I took more Klonopin than usual. I haven't done this for many, many years. What a relief. I feel calm, blissfully unstressed and those awful people seem very far away. I can trance. Listen to music, paint, live. And I know I'll sleep so well, like I haven't in months.

[*Laurie*]

I am at a loss as to what's going on. An astrologer whom I find very intuitive wrote that on May 16th, Mercury (I think it is) will transition from the 7 years it's been in Capricorn and go into 7 years in Aquarius. That's supposed to bring more peaceful governments, more appreciation of the arts, literature, and music, less of having to learn hard lessons as taught by Saturn.

I hope there's something to it, because these past 2 weeks have been really hard for me. So much conflict, anger, dissension in the air. I can't seem to have a conversation that doesn't end up in miscommunication and an argument. There seems to be a very odd vibe in the air...aggressive, hostile, unstable. I've noticed it even in the support group I facilitate. So I'm banking on the 16th to bring some stability, haha.
x Fingers crossed x

[*Laurie*]

Seeing my therapist today. I wish the session would be 3 hours long, lol.

[Wild Coyote]

I am sorry you have been going through this!

I have little sympathy for bullies/bullying.

I hope your astrologist is accurate, as I've been struggling, too. I have not gotten into altercations/disagreements, but I have been isolating in order to tolerate life.

I hope the klonopin is a safe amount. I am glad it is giving you some relief.
I wouldn't want anything to happen to you.


WC

Ugh, I am so sorry Laurie

It does seem like something is in the air.

I’m in a fb group with a lot of aggressive people in our area (a bunch of techies). One day one of the admins lost her #%#%, sick of it all and went on a huge, swearing rampage (I don’t blame her at all; I could not do that job). That behavior is everywhere.

I don’t want to exit the group, and I just found out you can block people in the group you’re not friends with. One of my neighbors told me. He was getting mean comments just for asking a plumbing question (I saw it). I don’t know what is wrong with people.

[Blueberrybook]

I am so sorry

[emgreen]

Rather than pissing you off, or bullying you, I shall tickle you: "Coochie coochie coo!!!" There...much better than klonopin, eh, Laurie? In fact, here's a tickle song:

[hopeless2015]

I'm so sorry!! I hope today is a better day for you. HUGS

[Deejay14]

Laurie, Block the people who are bullying you....that's the beauty of Facebook.

[wildflowerchild25]

I felt that way when I was taking too much Ativan a couple of weeks ago...so calm and zen. I could definitely see how people get addicted. I have made the decision to not take benzos anymore, ever. I won’t even ask for them. I was driving high as **** and it was very dangerous. And I only did it for three days.

I hope you stay safe with the benzos. And also please do block the people on fb if you can.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

I am sorry you have been going through this!

I have little sympathy for bullies/bullying.

I hope your astrologist is accurate, as I've been struggling, too. I have not gotten into altercations/disagreements, but I have been isolating in order to tolerate life.

I hope the klonopin is a safe amount. I am glad it is giving you some relief.
I wouldn't want anything to happen to you.


WC

Thank you, my friend. I guess I'm hurting because when I read what you wrote about not wanting something to happen to me, I cried. Thank you for such kind thoughts.

And I'm sorry you've been struggling, too. I've also been isolating. Sometimes it seems like the best way to handle a rough time until life cycles around and gets a bit easier.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by key tones

Ugh, I am so sorry Laurie

It does seem like something is in the air.

I’m in a fb group with a lot of aggressive people in our area (a bunch of techies). One day one of the admins lost her #%#%, sick of it all and went on a huge, swearing rampage (I don’t blame her at all; I could not do that job). That behavior is everywhere.

I don’t want to exit the group, and I just found out you can block people in the group you’re not friends with. One of my neighbors told me. He was getting mean comments just for asking a plumbing question (I saw it). I don’t know what is wrong with people.

Thank you very much, key tones. I know, it really does seem like an odd bit of time lately! A few weeks of...yucky vibes, in general.

I was the admin of the art group with over 3,000 members. For some reason I still don't understand (and have stopped trying to) a small group of members turned on me one day and were horribly cruel. I feel confident that I was doing a good job as admin of the Fb group, and my feeling has been validated by many members. So I'm darned if I know why those few people became so hostile and bullying.

Oh - anyway, I resigned as admin. There are just too many times when my mentally ill brain cannot handle such a responsibility.

I have never understood why so many people are so mean online, and often it is about a simple, basic question or comment. I suppose many people are just angry at their lives, so get online and blast people. It's the sad downside of the internet.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by cln1812

I am so sorry

Thank you, and it's nice to meet you

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by emgreen

Rather than pissing you off, or bullying you, I shall tickle you: "Coochie coochie coo!!!" There...much better than klonopin, eh, Laurie? In fact, here's a tickle song:

You've truly made me laugh out loud! I have the giggles now. Thank you, luv

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

I'm so sorry!! I hope today is a better day for you. HUGS

Thank you. It is...so far, lol

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by Deejay14

Laurie, Block the people who are bullying you....that's the beauty of Facebook.

Thank you, hun. I was admin of the group - have resigned. Just too much to handle throughout every single day and night.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

I felt that way when I was taking too much Ativan a couple of weeks ago...so calm and zen. I could definitely see how people get addicted. I have made the decision to not take benzos anymore, ever. I won’t even ask for them. I was driving high as **** and it was very dangerous. And I only did it for three days.

I hope you stay safe with the benzos. And also please do block the people on fb if you can.

Thank you for sharing your experience. I appreciate it.
I'm usually really "good" about taking my Klonopin exactly as prescribed. There have been just about 5 times in my 20+ years of being on K-pin that I've become so hurt, so angry, and so upset...despondent...feeling like I don't have the tools to cope...that I've taken took much of it. When I do that, it's easy to imagine taking just a little bit more....and that's a danger zone that really frightens me, which is why I made this post. I needed to see what I was doing in black and white, in front of my eyes.

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

Thank you very much, key tones. I know, it really does seem like an odd bit of time lately! A few weeks of...yucky vibes, in general.

I was the admin of the art group with over 3,000 members. For some reason I still don't understand (and have stopped trying to) a small group of members turned on me one day and were horribly cruel. I feel confident that I was doing a good job as admin of the Fb group, and my feeling has been validated by many members. So I'm darned if I know why those few people became so hostile and bullying.

Oh - anyway, I resigned as admin. There are just too many times when my mentally ill brain cannot handle such a responsibility.

I have never understood why so many people are so mean online, and often it is about a simple, basic question or comment. I suppose many people are just angry at their lives, so get online and blast people. It's the sad downside of the internet.

Ha! They were that way *because* you were a good admin. Naturally. Jerks!!

Our admin’s rampage about mean comments has made no difference at all.

The internet. Sigh.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by key tones

Ha! They were that way *because* you were a good admin. Naturally. Jerks!!

Our admin’s rampage about mean comments has made no difference at all.

The internet. Sigh.

I am so grateful for your kindness and support.

And yes. The internet is certainly a double-edged sword, isn't it...

[Zigy]

Why don't you block the bullies? Bullies hate being ignored so you get rid of them and hurt their ego them at the same time.

[Angelique67]

Originally Posted by *Laurie*

I am at a loss as to what's going on. An astrologer whom I find very intuitive wrote that on May 16th, Mercury (I think it is) will transition from the 7 years it's been in Capricorn and go into 7 years in Aquarius. That's supposed to bring more peaceful governments, more appreciation of the arts, literature, and music, less of having to learn hard lessons as taught by Saturn.

I hope there's something to it, because these past 2 weeks have been really hard for me. So much conflict, anger, dissension in the air. I can't seem to have a conversation that doesn't end up in miscommunication and an argument. There seems to be a very odd vibe in the air...aggressive, hostile, unstable. I've noticed it even in the support group I facilitate. So I'm banking on the 16th to bring some stability, haha.
x Fingers crossed x

Hi Laurie, that doesn't sound like any astrology I've ever come across (Mercury goes through all 12 signs in about a year's time including retrograde periods). But I hope things will get better soon. I have heard that on FB you can block people pretty thoroughly, so that's good.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by Zigy

Why don't you block the bullies? Bullies hate being ignored so you get rid of them and hurt their ego them at the same time.

Thank you for your reply, Zigy. I was admin of the site, so couldn't block them. I resigned as admin, so now I've blocked them.

[*Laurie*]

Originally Posted by Angelique67

Hi Laurie, that doesn't sound like any astrology I've ever come across (Mercury goes through all 12 signs in about a year's time including retrograde periods). But I hope things will get better soon. I have heard that on FB you can block people pretty thoroughly, so that's good.

I had the wrong planet...think it's Pluto that does the 7 year cycle. I know that Pluto is a planet of "shadow" impulses.

Now that I'm not the admin anymore, I've blocked the bullies. But, you know...I've been badly burned by them. Had no idea, none, that people would be so mean, just purely to be mean.

Thank you, Angelique

[99fairies]

I have no tolerance for bullies. I'm glad you blocked them.

Bullies suck. I was severely bullied in school for pretty much anything. I wouldn't go as far as saying that school was a traumatic experience for me, but now I find socializing very off-putting. People just have no respect these days, and when they're behind a computer screen, they feel invincible because they can "hide". Kind of like, "what are you going to do about it now, huh?"

It lets the weaklings feel strong. They are too weak to actually say **** to your face in real life, but the computer screen acts as a "protective barrier" for them, which is the only reason they do it.

So yes, bullies are weak people -- very weak, in fact. Perhaps more fragile than the people they bully. They have their own flaws etc. that they're trying to "compensate for." Of course that doesn't make the things they do any less hurtful or traumatizing, but they are thriving off making people feel worse so that they can feel better about themselves. Those people are truly toxic -- yet sometimes I feel bad for them. Like, I feel bad that they feel the need to hurt others just to make themselves feel better. What is it that you are struggling with so much that you feel the need to hurt others? I am willing to help you if you need the help; just ask for it instead of hurting others. So I don't feel bad for them for bullying, but I feel bad that they struggle and that they don't know where to vent that negative energy.

For example, one girl in school used to severely bully me, but I ultimately found out that her mom and dad were undergoing a divorce. That's when it clicked: she was devastated and needed to make people feel worse off than she was so that she could drag everyone down with her. That's not the right thing to do and no one should ever do that, but I can see the compensation. However, if she had gotten the help she needed, perhaps she wouldn't have bullied me or others.

But anyway, not to be mean... I agree with your decision to just leave the group. Let the toxic people stay toxic together. Let them fester in their own cesspool. If they want to change, they will change, whether they're forced to or have an epiphany. But it is no one's (and shouldn't be anyone's) responsibility to make them change. You did the right thing by letting them figure themselves out. I'm glad that you stepped down, not because you should HAVE to do that, but because you're doing the right thing for your mental health.