[Blueberrybook]

OK, so I was beginning to get a little too manic and made myself take the extra 150 mg of Seroquel that the pdoc has me take when I get manic. Coming down now, and it sucks. I’ve been cycling a lot lately. I wonder why that is? Sometimes, I will go months without cycling. I don’t understand it.

Granted, I do have a lot of stressors in my life right now. Hubby possibly will get a better paying job in September (we are 99% sure), but an audit at the university offering the job (not 100% official just yet) is causing a hiring freeze. It is making me antsy because my husband has to sign his teacher contact to commit to teaching high school physics in the district by the 25th. If he breaks the contract without a good reason, the state could sanction him and he could lose his teaching license for high school science and math. The position we “think” he is going to get is a 1 yr visiting professorship at a university, which could be extended or turned into a permanent job, and he has a good rapport with most of the mechanical engineering department there. (He has a Ph.D.). A teachers’ salary doesn’t go far when you have a mortgage, a kid, and medical expenses. When we first bought our house, hubby had good paying jobs at NASA, but the government cut off funding, and he would be let go from position after position. I can’t work because of BP, so I feel guilty not bringing in an income.

Also, my daughter’s school year is drawing to a close. Her last day of school is next Thursday. She is 10 yr old and will start 5th grade next year. She is super smart, but very intense and may have something like sensory processing disorder. Not the easiest child to parent, and sometimes I feel she and I are like oil and water, much as I love her. Not to mention we are full blown right into the middle of puberty. I am a little anxious about how the summer will go.

[BeyondtheRainbow]

Spring and summer is when I do a lot of cycling and I think that's pretty common. The extra light boosts me up and I usually wind up mixed by July. Right now I'm just the slightest bit happy hypomanic which I almost never get; we have to be careful and at the first sign I'm not sleeping I'll be put on more AP. Once fall comes I still get mixed and depressed but rarely if ever hypo.

[amicus_curiae]

I haven’t had any sun since April 2014 — not sure that my cycling has anything to do with seasons or not. I’m always a little manic. I can recognize ‘dangerous’ mania, I guess, although spending and sex sprees can wear me out.

I just bought a $295-pair of reading glasses. I have 13-pair but I don’t like some of them, now.

I spend stupidly. I remember the extremely anxiety that I felt in changing jobs. Meant changing countries. Not my preference but circumstances...

In your situation, I would feel deep anxiety, too. If you can try to handle these feelings w/o drugs, that would probably be best.

[Blueberrybook]

Thanks. I will bring it up at my pdoc appt next week Tuesday.

[emgreen]

I would cycle more, but haven't had a bike since college.

[Blueberrybook]

Originally Posted by emgreen

I would cycle more, but haven't had a bike since college.

😆 Funny!