[yellow_fleurs]

So I am really struggling with impulse control right now. It helps that I am self aware at the moment (hopefully lasts), and for objective things like speeding for example, if I catch myself I will slow down because I know it could harm someone. More subjective things are harder. At the same time I find myself having really intense urges to do things impulsive like take pills, not really to kill myself but just because, and also urges to drink, do drugs whatever. If I have a few seconds to think (i.e. I would need to open a pill bottle) I can currently stop myself. But for other things, like punching myself, I can have half a thought and then am doing it, but can generally stop myself before too long. Two sides of my brain are fighting and I need the rational side to win or I don't know what will happen. Anyways, any advice on how to control these things? Techniques, PRN meds, whatever? I am running out of energy to stop these impulses all the time, but trying not to do anything I would regret. Maybe I am mostly writing this to vent, not sure.

yellow_fleurs. I have trouble with this too -- when not well. Punching myself and hitting my head. It's not as if I think, "oh, let me do this thing now". It just happens so fast. I'm curious too if people have ideas.

[pirilin]

I have none. My mind is the slave of my body.

[yellow_fleurs]

Sorry you experience that, too. Since I am not super depressed anymore I feel "fine", but clearly not totally with these actions and all the anger, too.