[Blueberrybook]

My anxiety has been through the roof lately. My pdoc felt I had built up a tolerance to Klonopin and changed to Xanax XR to try for 2 weeks. Then, I am to call him back and let him know how things are going, and he will either extend the Xanax script, put me back on Klonopin, or try something else (likely Ativan). I don’t want to go on Ativan though. I have had it in the past, and it knocked me out. I guess it would be OK if I took it before bed, I did mention to him the Klonopin was helping less and less and that I might be getting hypo or just going to bed too late. This camp of my daughter’s is so stressful to get to on time because hubby is letting her stay up late (I take my night meds, and I suspect the Seroquel knocks me out within 30 minutes, so I am not up to see how late my daughter is staying up.). Today, I had the pdoc appt. at 9:15 in the morning, and I gave hubby all the instructions on getting her, the cats, and the chores going (laundry, dishwasher, etc.) before I got home because I wouldn’t have time to do it. He had her up and dressed but gave her a peppermint before breakfast because she said had a sore throat then she complained her water, bacon, and granola bar tasted weird and wouldn’t eat. Ugh! She has to eat breakfast before getting anything like a peppermint with her sensory issues (hubby downplays them as quirks or things she will outgrow, but she’s 10 1/2; she is not outgrowing this stuff. Also, 9 times out of 10, after she eats, her sore throat is gone.

My pdoc did give me my next visit by phone when I explained hubby would likely be in teacher training, and I didn’t feel it would be appropriate to bring my daughter along. He does phone appts. more willingly than my old pdoc, but she also always had her eye more on my weight, and even if we had an appt by phone, she always wanted me to then come in person with my daughter, I think just to see.

This new pdoc is trying to get the bipolar and anxiety under control and then seems like he will address the weight although he told me really cognitive behavior therapy is better for the ED stuff, and I know from experience that he is right.

He upped the Adderall a tiny bit since my concentration has been the pits. I hope it doesn’t spin me into mania, but if it lets me be able to read books again, that would be awesome, and it has upped my sex drive which has been MIA for years (except those times I get the bright idea to stop taking my meds, hopefully, I’m not the only one who does this from time to time? Sometimes Ithink even feeling depressed would be better than feeling flat, and then get the crazy idea to stop some or most of my meds). Picked up the Adderall and Xanax XR at the pharmacy today, but, as usual, they have to order in the other meds (except the ones like Lamictal, which are on mail order). I used to use an actual drugstore, but the pharmacy service was dismal. They had more meds on hand, but their incompetence wasn’t worth it, so now I use a pharmacy inside a grocery store, which tends to have to order in prescriptions that are less common.

Hopefully, I will make the next month OK. I have the pdoc phone call appointment August 9.

[wildflowerchild25]

I hope everything goes well for you for the next month with the med changes!