[tecomsin]

I had a bad dream last night and still feel discombobulated.

There was an electronic pad instead of a steering wheel and the car I was driving stopped responding to my swipes and veered off the road.I crashed a car into the side of a deep ditch.

Then later we were clamouring around in the upstairs of a house and found a green bar of soap under a bed, or between the mattress and the box springs. My (now dead) grandmother found it. Somehow this soap bar was evidence of what happened.

Then when I woke up I had been looking for the crashed car inside of a house. I also saw my (now dead) uncle in the dream. He was walking carrying a suitcase and a suit on a hangar down the side walk whilst I was walking the other way to go look for the car to get it out of the ditch.

My son, who is supposed to be in at work at 9 am every morning, has been drifting later and later and is now after 10 am. He stays awake until 4 or 5 AM on the weekends. Now he's finding trouble falling asleep when he needs to get up in the morning and then is very mean and grouchy with me if I tell him he doesn't have any more sick days at the moment so he needs to get in even if he feels like crap. Then he tells me I have no friends and need to pay a cleaning lady 'to be my friend'. So about half the mornings are pretty bad. He is supposed to move in with a friend in January so this will all be over soon. Maybe that is what I am anxious about. Last time he was away he ended up with broken teeth in Guatemala.

Sorry this is so long. I just needed to get all this off my chest. Anxiety has been pretty high. Now that is leaking into my dreams.

[Wild Coyote]

Great to have you posting!

I am sorry your anxiety level has been so high.
I am also sorry to read your son is treating you badly.


WC

[tecomsin]

He can be considerate and seem to enjoy my company. He can also be rude, hostile. One morning I didn't drive him to the train station because he was so rude. Then he apologized, but it will happen again. Whenever he is not feeling good he takes it out on me. Then this morning I woke up at 4am and he was still awake. I just find that so irresponsible so I raised my voice at him and don't feel good about it. I feel trapped into a no win situation. He complains to me about having to pick up his own dirty clothes once a week so I can wash them. He thought my cleaning lady should do that. There's a woman who helps me once a week or so with vacuuming and dusting, the bathrooms, and tidying up but I do cooking and laundry. I told him this is not a hotel and I'm not going to ask her to pick up his clothes. That's when he blurted out that I was paying her to be my friend rather than cleaning.

I never know which person is going to show up when I am interacting with him especially in the morning.

[Moose72]

Boys! My son has an answer to everything- hes 17.

[downandlonely]

Sorry your son can be rude sometimes. How old is he?

[tecomsin]

thanks downandlonely, he's 24. Works full time now. Moose72, my son also has an answer to everything. I am actively trying to avoid confrontation with him but when I wake up at 4 or 5 am and find him still awake I know there will be trouble again this week getting out the door in the morning and he will be nasty to me. Even though it is predictable I still find it demoralizing and intimidating. He just doesn't respect me, which is the sad fact.

[tecomsin]

I had a better morning with my son today. Called to make both of us dental appointments. I've got something on the roof of my mouth. Not sure what it is. He's got pain on gums between two teeth when he eats. He also needs to get a cleaning. His prescription, health and dental insurance just became valid so he's covered.