[dshantel]

It's been a really long time since I was here last. How's everyone?

So I'm just needing advice on a situation. Right now, I'm in a really really bad head space. Extremely irritable and angry, full of rage. Usually when I'm like this, I avoid being around people as much as possible. This whole past week has not been good at all and the irritability just seems to get worse day by day. It's hard just being around my own kids and family. There's so much going through my head and I just want to run away. So anyway, my friend usually comes over on weekends but right now her phone is off but they can still receive text messages. Yesterday I text 2 of her numbers that I didn't want them to come over because I wasn't doing well and just wanted no one here this weekend. So they show up this morning, not too long ago, waking me up. So I go let them in and she's trying to explain to me about some snow storm that is supposed to be happening where she lives, all weekend and how they may be here until Tuesday. The way that she's explaining all of this is as if she saw my text. So on the inside I'm raging. Because she's acting like she read my text and I guess she decided to just ignore it. Not a great way to start my freaking morning. So now all 3 of her kids are here and she's at work and I just want everyone gone. 2 teenage boys and a girl about my oldest kids age. I was planning to sleep in but so much for that. I don't know what to do and people should not be around me like this. And now I'm supposed to put on this fake happy mask and try to be nice when I really don't care or want to. And all I could think when she was telling me about the stupid storm was, it's not my problem.

[downandlonely]

Sorry you're going through this. My mom has bipolar, and she can get really irritable too. What usually helps you when you're like this?

[Gabyunbound]

I'm so sorry you're going through this.

The only suggestion I can offer is to explain to your friend, in person now, how you're feeling and how hard it is to put a friendly mask on (which must be exhausting, amongst other things) when around other people. Hopefully she will understand, and you will feel a bit of the load lifted from your shoulders. It's truly awful how you're feeling, but it must be even worse being alone with it.

[dshantel]

Originally Posted by downandlonely

Sorry you're going through this. My mom has bipolar, and she can get really irritable too. What usually helps you when you're like this?

It is usually better when I'm not around people. I'd rather be alone when I feel like this because any little thing that anyone does that I find annoying or irritating sets me off. Things that I can usually ignore when I'm stable I can't ignore when I'm like this. So it's better if people aren't around me. That's why I sent her 2 texts saying I didn't want them to come this weekend.

[MickeyCheeky]

I'm so sorry you're struggling, dshantel Your friend didn't act very nicely. Can you try to explain her the specific reason you don't want other people coming over in the future? If she's a true friend, hopefully she'll understand this time and will try not to bother you anymore. If she doesn't, I'd say she's not a very understanding friend... and you may want to reconsider your friendship with her. I'm so sorry you have to deal with this