[yellow_fleurs]

I am wondering how this interacts with bipolar for you and how are you treating it? I thought my intrusive thoughts were just part of a mixed episode, but now I think they are their own thing. I will be discussing with my therapist. I don't have typical compulsions such as washing hands, but I have thoughts that make me afraid of harming someone by accident or intentionally, or that I may have done so by accident due to mistakes in the past. These are definitely things I would not do, it's just a fear that pops into my head to torment me. I cannot even read a news article without it triggering a reaction of fear. I find myself endlessly searching for information and also avoiding stuff that triggers the fear. My rumination over the past and guilt in general is out of hand, too. Like I am searching for why I must be a bad person and cannot trust myself. These thoughts seem worse when in a mixed episode or depressed, but are also occurring other times. Thanks!