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#101
(I think something moved.) ^
I am fine, a little sad. My dog is going blind. __________________ "I get knocked down, but I get up again..." Bipolar 1 |
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#102
don't know who I am, WhatI am? I wetter a better life. I put om a fnont
can ho one .Dontworr7 Ia m so, so lots of jHelp is available to e. Yet I fell els awe Fear, pumice and terror admissoin. GoI need to turm this around asa sorry fore tpps. I am profoundly uable typing/. __________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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#103
all the snow's melted today.
I must say, I am a little disappointed, because I was hoping it would last a little longer (I love the snow) it feels like a summer day today with all the sun and the briteness. I don't like it. not really anything that needs doing today so guess I'm just going to chill still feel about as blah as yesterday |
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#104
Back to waking at 4am I want to go back to bed but so wide awake. I was doing really well with reducing my sleep Med. I don’t want to increase it yet again. Lack of sleep increases my thoughts of SH tho. I think I’ll try Benadryl tonight. Never taken it for sleep. Worth a shot.
Happy Sunday. Still dark Foggy rainy here. Glum. |
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I just got a call from my sister saying that my brother took my dad to the hospital. This time it was for severe alcohol withdrawal. That last time it was more for a blood clot in his leg. The last time they let him go the same day. This time they have a bed for him and will assist him with alcohol detox. We are relieved he is finally getting help. Plus, we were concerned because he's been depressed, very much neglecting self care, and apparently quit his blood thinner (for his leg) in order to drink. My sister said that my brother told the doctors about our concerns for dad's mental health and shared the family history.
My dad and siblings live in NJ right across the river from PA. My dad prefers the closest PA hospital more than the one in NJ. Given that, the hospital they are referring him to for detox (maybe dual dx) is even further away from me, further west and south near Philadelphia. I won't be able to visit him on my own as I would if he had been referred in NJ. Last edited by Anonymous46341; Feb 03, 2019 at 10:02 AM.. |
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#106
Doing better. Still it looks like I went two round with Mike Tyson.
The "ice bag" is a ziplock full of green peas. Science at work. 20 minutes on, 20 minutes in the freezer. It works better than real ice. Later. Cheers. __________________ ]Roses are red. Violets are blue.[ Look for the positive in the negative. PIRILON. If lemons fall from the sky, make lemonade. Unknown. Nothing stronger than habit. Victor Hugo. You are the slave of what you say, and the master of what you keep. Unknown. Last edited by bluekoi; Feb 03, 2019 at 11:59 AM.. |
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#107
I’m finally having a good weekend for once. Not amazing, not great, but “good.” In other words, Saturday and Sunday (so far) are the best days I’ve had in a LONG time. Not that ALL of my other days have been “bad” per se, but they were either “so-so” or “I want to sleep.” Almost forgettable, as they’ve just blended together.
I was also hearing voices again last night, but I know they’re not real. They kept whispering my name and telling me to do bad things to myself, such as
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They kept giving me the urge to do it. They said that it’s “what I needed.” But even though they’re trying to control my thoughts, I won’t let them. I’m just going to work from home tomorrow just in case something bad happens, and if things go ok, I’ll go into the office on Tuesday. I know it’s all fake. |
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#108
Paint night went well! It was a lot of fun. I am not nearly as good of an artist as my friend but that wasn't the point, just a nice diversion and something different to do. I think we will be doing more of them. Doing errands and chores today, and feeling good about being productive.
Being social was good for me to sort of distract myself from my obsessive thoughts. Unfortunately as they are no longer just stuck on me but on others in my life, too, it is making me feel isolated. I am in a healthy relationship with someone for the past 6 years, he is very supportive and I know how will not leave me just because I am unwell, but still I worry these thoughts will impact our relationship since they are somewhat projecting onto him now. I will not bother you all with details, but I will just say I am not enjoying it! Okay, just wanted to check in, but time to get moving on the errands before I slow down and don't want to get back up. Hope everyone has a great Sunday. Thinking of everyone who is struggling. |
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#109
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It's so helpful that you have the insight to realize the voices should not control what you do with your life. I think of you daily and am hoping you have a great week! WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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I know you have been very concerned about him for a long time now. Hopefully, he'll get started on the types of help that will most benefit him. Sorry he is being sent further away for dual diagnosis treatment. Are you feeling hopeful about his potential recovery? WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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Socialization saves me, too, when my mind becomes obsessive. I hope you have a good week. WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. Last edited by Wild Coyote; Feb 03, 2019 at 01:57 PM.. |
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#112
Being social is also very important for me. Lately, I have had a bad cold and am unable to go out. It's making me stir crazy.
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#113
Well it's been a good weekend. Husband got called into work but heck it's a whole day at time and a half and he's off at 3:30 so not bad. Ran him some lunch a little bit ago. I've got laundry done, swept yesterday but I need to get the bathroom cleaned. Just chilling in the recliner now.
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#114
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My service dog suddenly lost all vision in one eye before she had passed on. It was very, very sad, for sure. My heart goes out to you and to your companion. WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#115
Last night was night 2 of my sleep med. I slept about 13 1/2 hours. My mom called this morning trying to get me and the kids to church (hubs had to work). I told her I wasn’t sure because I didn’t know what would happen if I freaked out. She said she’d stay on standby (I’m currently not driving and she had already been to the early service). So that’s what we did. I didn’t make it in time to take the kids to kids church because we were already 10 minutes late so It didn’t happen. My youngest wasn’t happy about that but she had to suck it up. I did fine. I guess I will go back to work tomorrow. I am sick about it though. Absolutely sick. I’m crying for no reason just because of my mood and I feel like work is the last thing I need. At the same time however, I feel like I’ll never be ready to go back to work so at least for the time being I’ll suck it up. Mom says not to look at it like that. She says if I need off to take it. I’m still not sure what to do. I think for now I may just nap.
__________________ ***** Every finger in the room is pointing at me I want to spit in their faces then I get afraid of what that could bring I got a bowling ball in my stomach I got a desert in my mouth Figures that my courage would choose to sell out now Tori Amos ~ Crucify Dx: Schizoaffective Disorder |
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#116
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Please take good care. Hopefully you will be able to get out soon. WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#117
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Always great to hear from you! WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. Last edited by Wild Coyote; Feb 03, 2019 at 02:50 PM.. |
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#118
My book is published and is on sale now. I also created a companion website and am working on adding content to it. It's a great deal of work and the costs are adding up. It's ok though.
There's still no motivation though. I'm doing all this work based on checklists that I created and follow. I miss that "automatic motivation" where I did things just because I wanted to do them and followed through to the very end. Now it's hard to get a project off the ground even if it's just cleaning my space. These checklists help because I can get stuff done but it's not really coming from me in terms of motivation to just do something, if that makes sense. I have been thinking a lot about why I feel so alone even though I live with my family. I think being alone is fundamental to the human condition. I think it's something that I have to get used to although I wish it didn't have to be that way. I often think I'll end up being alone and that's causing me to miss out on what's happening right now. It's really strange. My mood is low but I guess I'm managing. __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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#119
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I have been having great difficulty with motivation, too. I have also been feeling very alone, despite having people around me. I try hard to live in the Present Moment. My life is very difficult right now, which feels very isolating. WC __________________ May we each fully claim the courage to live from our hearts, to allow Love, Faith and Hope to enLighten our paths. |
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#120
New here, not sure how forums and posting work here
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