My experience with bipolar disorder as a child

It was horrible. Absolutely horrible. I suspect I still have bipolar disorder instead of schizophrenia or acute psychosis (that I am currently stable due to meds) but here's my story..

When I was around 12 I read the Bible over the internet. I started with Genesis, IIRC. I slept and the next day I woke up with euphoria. The happiness could not be contained. I went backwards (followed backwards reasoning) and thought that there's really a God and he is communicating with me (as of current I am an atheist and a staunch follower of the Scientific Method) and lo! I spent a year not studying my science textbook... and getting a bit too emotional with the idea of God. I had, what psychiatrists call, "Manic episode" for about a year. Associated with religion.


Now I won't talk anything about religion, since it is not allowed here, but in the end the disorder caused me a lot of suffering... As of current I am still bad at maths, and the year my disorder caused me to not take my science classes seriously and I instead wanted to be a theologian.

It was absolutely horrible. Now a scientist by heart, I can only imagine what would have happened if I hadn't recovered from my manic episode... I'd have ended up dropping out of school and things could have been much worse than they are...

But there's still a positive side! My 'madness' caused me to study what causes it, how it is caused, why is it caused and when it is caused. Now I plan to become a pharmaceutical chemist and develop drugs for the lesser-known diseases called as 'Neuropsychological disorders' by psychologists and medical professionals alike.

Now I am mad about making the world sane! Of course, madness isn't fully positive and it has caused me to believe that I am a lesser human being than my classmates who are healthy, but I visit a psychiatrist and he tells me everything's ok and I still can change the world!

As Dr.Stephen Hawking said, "... However bad life may seem, there's always something you can do and succeed at! While there's life, there's hope."


All I can say is, wait till we win the war against diseases! It's eventual.