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Today I managed to pick up my father's belongings and all of the items I had dropped off for him at the psych hospital last week. At first, they said only my father or brother could. My sister told my dad that yesterday, and Dad said he would never go there for them. I was pissed off because a) my dad skipped out on the psych hospital/rehab after being released from the general hospital, and b) I spent a lot of money on the stuff I took to the psych hospital. I wanted it back, not just because of the $$ part, but the principle.
I drove 45 mins to my sister's house after picking up the clothes. She only lives down the street from my father. I was not going to visit my father, though. I left the clothes with my sister. I ended up taking my adult nephew out to lunch. On the way back, when we passed my father's house (which is unavoidable), my dad spotted us. I waved, but didn't stop and didn't visit him on my way home. I need more time to see if he's going to go back to his destructive ways and get sicker again. Plus, I don't want to seem to be enabling/accepting his stupid decision to skip out on the psych hospital/rehab. As Al-Anon suggests, I have to look out for myself. I'm still severely stressed by all of this. When I first got to my sister's house, my brother-in-law became very emotional. He hugged me and started crying telling me how much everyone loves me. I have to say it was awkward. I don't hate my brother-in-law, but I am not close to him because he had a history of verbally abusing my sister and nephews. After he quit drinking, that eased a little, but not completely. I do believe it has eased even more since my youngest nephew lost his life to suicide. It does still bother me that my brother-in-law verbally abused him, but I decided to just let it go, to a degree. I don't believe it helps anyone holding grudges. I'm not a grudge holder, anyway. My sister doesn't want me to dwell on it, so I just try not to. Last edited by Anonymous46341; Apr 29, 2019 at 05:57 PM.. |
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Jennifer1967: So glad your session with your new therapist went well and that you have a healthy new positive outlook on your adoption! Great work! Hope it continues!
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Sitting at N3's piano lesson listening. When we were eating dinner, I felt yet another tonsil stone in my left tonsil! About a week ago I removed one that was pretty big and then today there were TWO of approx the same size! I put them on a quarter to guage size. Wonder why my left tonsil is suddenly doing that?? Tonsil stones irritate my throat and are generally a nuicense. Can't spell. Ok. And word finding is off too....
I feel somewhat better at the moment listening to the lesson. I hope tonight is ok. I hope not to stay up half the night or more again. Its raining outside and cold. Wet... Damp.... Not as wonderfully brilliant as yesterday. I know the secrets of the universe. They are one - a whole that is greater than the sum of its parts. __________________ Wellbutrin XL 300 mg Loxapine 50mg Ingrezza 80 mg Ativan .5 mg 2x/day Propranolol 20 mg 2x/day Mania (December 2023) Mixed episode/Hypomania (September 2023) Depression, Anxiety and Intrusive thoughts (September 2021) Depression & Psychosis (July/August 2021) Mania (April/May 2019) |
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Well I thought today was going to be an unproductive day, but I got off my butt and did stuff. I painted my nails first and while they dried, I made all the phone calls I needed to make this morning. Then I got on my desktop and looked for jobs again. One job that I had applied to made me take one of those personality tests after completing the application. That thing must've had over 100 questions! After I was done with that, I went out in the backyard and cut the grass. It's not as taxing as the front yard, so it didn't take that long. I didn't even break a sweat. But man, my backyard is covered in weeds. I need to get some weed killer and spray it everywhere! So that's something else that I'll have to deal with soon.
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I applied for disability today and went to IOP. At the disability meeting I started hallucinating as I did during IOP, but I reality checked and it wasn't too bad. Mood's okay. I started propanolol too, and it smells like the hospital. I hope it helps because the akathisia and the trmors aregetting pretty annoying and uncomfortable.
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Well, I just completed my photographic work. Editing done and professional email sent. Last night I had a minor breakdown. I hadn't realised the stress this work put me under. I haven't worked since July last year and I was a mess then. I have been obsessing about whether I did a great job as I really want my work to be as close to perfect as possible so I can get more work if I get the chance. My partner said I put too much pressure on myself and he is right. Now it is over I am relieved. However, I still have to meet up with my client to see if my work meets his requirements. He is a nice guy so it shouldn't be too stressful. I am just worried my work doesn't meet his standards despite my partner being extremely impressed by it.
Today will be a much quieter day. My only tasks are to go for a long walk (to help my hip recover), and get some petrol as I am almost out. The weather is cool but sunny so the walk by the ocean should be refreshing. My mood is stable. I am generally content. This makes me so happy as I am close to three months stable which is a record for me in the last ten years. I think my new med regime is the reason. I am on a lot of meds but I won't mess with it as I cannot risk getting sick again. __________________ Bipolar 1 with psychotic features PTSD "Phew! For a minute there I lost myself." 'Karma Police' by Radiohead |
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I tend to dye my grey hair when hypomanic, as many of us do. Then i hate the fake, ersatz look when i come down. Today i got all the dyed parts cut out of my hair. They were looking lank. I'm back to being a Silver Fox! The only thing is my hair is so short my head is cold so i'm wearing a kerchief like a babushka. I look like a Russian peasant! It's nice and soft on my head and covers my neck too. Much better than a knitted cap.
I didn't have any glimmers of happiness today. But it was overcast and cold so it's not a surprise. Hugs to all who need them! |
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Hello everyone; I hope everyone is doing well tonight. I am exhausted and pretty annoyed.
In terms of the medication adjustment; I seem to be doing just fine, at least I was fine today during work; still no side effects. It seems to be working well to keep me in check. My first day back to work was well terrible, which you know after some time off; I expected there to be some issues. But still those issues fustrated me and really ticked me off. Plus I had to stay late because of there issues. I was very much unhappy with a whole group of people; even my boss was super upset with them. I also didn't blow my gasket like I wanted to. I was patient but still really really annoyed with the mess they gave me. Oh well tomorrow is always another day. Hugs to everyone __________________ Generalized Anxiety Disorder Depression Symptoms of PTSD Trintellix 10mg once daily Buspar 10mg three times daily |
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I went to work yesterday even though my back was still hurting from Saturday. I took Tylenol 1 which helped the pain a lot.
I managed to solve a really hard problem at work too, so I'm pleased with that. Still feeling low but getting by. I hope we get better weather soon, spring is starting late this year. We had ice pellets falling from the sky yesterday! __________________ * Dx: Unspecified Bipolar and Related Disorder * Rx: Remeron, Prozac, Klonopin, Vraylar My avatar picture is a photo of the Whirlpool Galaxy I took in April 2023. I dedicated this photo to my sister who passed away in July 2016. |
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Follow up appointment with GP at local clinic went okay. I was weighed and measured, and he is sending me for blood tests. He's fine with me staying on 50 mg of Seroquel for now, given my horrible experience with 100 mg.
I told him the place he sent me to last Friday could not refer me to a pdoc, to which he responded: "bull" ...not me, but them. He told me that every patient he tries to refer to a psychiatrist ,the request bounces back and he's told to send his patients to walk-in counselling downtown for the pdoc referral Ugh! So he had me fill out a bunch of questionnaires in hopes that if he submitted them I'd get my pdoc referral. Regardless of what route actually works the wait for a pdoc is super long. So I'm grateful this local GP is helping me out in the meantime. Wish me luck with the fasting blood test tomorrow, I'm okay delaying breakfast, but the thought of going out into the world without my morning cup of tea ... yikes! |
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lightly_toasted, it might be possible you can have your tea, if you don't put milk or sugar/honey/etc. in it. By all means, confirm this with either the phlebotomy office or your doctor's office, though. If you only like tea with milk and/or some sweetener, then I know you'd be out of luck if you must fast before the blood tests. I drink black coffee before my fasting tests, though normally I like my coffee with milk.
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I have cramps today. Hopefully they'll go away now that I've taken ibuprofen. I see my therapist this afternoon, and then have my last lecture of a modern China lecture series tonight. I really need to start studying my French, but I am having some motivation issues, particularly with that. I have, however, accomplished a number of things this week, despite.
I feel beat. I'm a little overwhelmed by this past week, plus. My husband was sending me one email after another with ideas about a project. I had to tell him to stop sending them one by one and rather in batches, that they were overwhelming me. |
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I impulsively applied for a charter school job. I got an interview today but I bombed it. I said I don’t like public school and the superintendent was like this IS a public school. Whoops. Pretty hard to come back from that! It’s ok though because it was for general Ed and I don’t think I can control a classroom of 20-30 students. Especially ones with behavioral issues. I can control a classroom of 8 with behavioral issues but not a full class. So I don’t feel that bad, just embarrassed.
RS and I are going to look at an apartment today and another one on Thursday. I’m not sure we will get the apartment because he asked about our credit scores. Mine is only ok because I missed payments on my student loan last summer. I have no idea what RS’s is. He’s got a lot of credit card debt. So we will see. We were going to look at a house but I drove by and I didn’t like the location. It’s on a very busy street and my son wouldn’t be able to play outside. I also wouldn’t be able to get into or out of the driveway very easily. So no on that. I’m not as down today considering the state of things. I’m a little down that I can’t make more money but oh well. That’s that I guess. __________________ Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real? -Albus Dumbledore That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have. -Garden State |
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Didn't get the other job either. Oh well. The search continues. He did make a recommendation of a place to drop off a resumé with though, so who knows what will come of that. It's a place I've been to before, but years ago.
Other than that, not much. Still battling the damn pink eye. It's persisting way more than I anticipated (or hoped), but I put a call in with my Dr. and she's not concerned about it. (Yet anyway). At least on the drops I'm not contagious, though I still am being super diligent. Mood-wise, alright. I'm ramping down my Abilify, but it should not be a problem as I'm only taking 2.5 mg as it is. (Officially they think it's 5, but I cut it in half quite some time ago). I feel like weight is still creeping on (even though it's not particularly known for it, the time correlation is incriminating). Hugs to any who need them. __________________ ********* Mr. Robot Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside. --The Cure
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The pink eye sounds distressing. I hate pink eye. And I thought abilify was known for weight gain? I never gained weight on it, but I thought weight gain was one of the documented risks. But yeah, gaining weight on it would make sense to me. Sorry you have to go through that, though. |
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I'm glad you checked on that, lightly toasted! I hope after you get your blood tests you treat yourself to a big breakfast. I usually do.
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I am doing ok. I washed two loads of laundry today. I decided to take it easy today and am wearing no makeup. I feel fine. My mother and I are getting along again. I am waiting to receive some money for groceries but will spend it on classes instead. I don't know if I'm cut out to be a real estate agent but will do my best to survive. The weather is quite dreary today, but I feel ok.
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