I feel crazy

Am I the only one that sees their T twice a week and their pdoc once a week? It has been like this for years now. I remember a time when I only saw my pdoc every 6 months. I don’t think I will ever get back to that point.

Also has anyone else ever notice a personality change? I know mine has changed and I don’t like this new me.

I had a few times in the past seen my T twice a week for short amount of time when working on trauma.

My Pdoc will do Med changes over the phone so I’m grateful. I don’t need to see him more than every 3 months.

Maybe your meds are to blame for feeling so changed ??

At one point I was seeing my T three times week; granted that was at a very very low point back when he first realized I had PTSD and I really needed it.

At one point I was seeing my primary doc once a week when he and I first realized I was having issues.

I am now a the point where I get to see my Cardiologist biweekly.

I hated seeing my T that much; I hated being that dependent on a doctor; and honestly I am sick of seeing of my Cardio I do everything right yet my heart basically laughs in my face.

I can only see a T every other week and pdoc once a month. If I need more I have to do IOP.

At one point I was seeing a therapist 4 days per week for 90 minute sessions. This was how he kept me out of the hospital. I felt really bad, especially when I realized he gave me his lunch break to get those long sessions but they saved me. I had no pdoc at the time or I'dd probably have been o a tight leash there too. I was dangerously depressed ad by the end I was't.. It was like my own IOP..

I used to see my T once a week when I was more unstable. Never saw my pdoc more than once a month, because she wanted to be sure the meds were working first. Having more interaction for me was important because I was having a hard time regulating my emotions after the breakdown.

I see my therapist once a week and my pdoc every six weeks. I wish I could see my pdoc sooner than that, but it is what it is I guess.

How has your personality changed?

I am more assertive. Not as polite. Feel like I have a lack of restraint and self control. More easily agitated and irritable. Just to name a few. Things I used to like I can’t stand now.

I see my therapist once a week now, it was every two-four but she gave me a set time each week recently. Not sure why she decided on that but after a recent session she said she wanted to see me every week. I was seeing a psychiatrist every one to four weeks when I was really unstable, but I was unstable because of the meds so makes sense. I actually do not see one at all for the time being somehow they discharged me from their care unless I need to go back on meds. Currently figuring out what is going on with my therapist and working out if I really have bipolar or just OCD and depression and what to do about meds vs therapy. Does it help you to see them that often? If so that's what matters I think.

Sometimes I feel like my personality has changed like when I am really irritable it doesn't feel like me, but I am not sure it is my personality vs just unmanaged mental illness.

see my pdoc between 2 or 3 months depending on how I am doing ... was seeing a T weekly because I am so withdrawn from everyone and everything my pdoc felt I needed an outlet ...

but three visits a week .... my copay would be $60 and way out of my budget ... and I would have to miss so much work ... just not going to happen for me ... but glad it works for you ... peace my friend .. Tigger .

````I dont think this is surprising considering what you have been through at your company. What is the outside time frame for how long it might be before you know you got a transfer? Sometimes a long difficult time like you've had is a hint from the universe to consider some real change in your job, not just what company you are working for, but whether a different type of work would be the answer. It just isnt true that you can only work for that company in a similar job. Many things arent fair in corporate life. They're out to make money and if they think you "dont have the right stuff" or your eyes are the wrong color, they're going to make your life miserable no matter what the law says about non-discrimination, rights for disabled, whatever. Think outside the box. You have proven by your dogged determination in fighting for your rights that you have more aptitudes than just in your present field. You would make an excellent attorney, some different type of advocate, maybe a mental health advocate etc or excellent in many other jobs different than you have now. Lots of people take disability and retrain for something else. The average time for having the same career field or the same employer nowadays is astonishingly low nowadays.
You know I think highly of you. I know you could do something magical working for a different company. Or things may work out w a transfer. Hugs!

I see my t weekly and my
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Pdoc monthly I
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Just got out of ip and he wanted to see me
In two weeks