[Daonnachd]

Tomorrow I have ECT. Last weekend I helped my son write a persuasive essay dealing with it so we also discussed some of the reasons, both proven and unproven, as to why it isn't used as much its efficacy would suggest. Now I have those negative arguments rolling around in my head generating anxiety.

[Blue_Bird]

I've slept 7 hours total since I woke up Saturday morning..... I'm seriously praying I get some sleep tonight

[Moose72]

Graduaation went very well! All 3 of my kids are gradgeeated! (Dont like my photos of me though...)

[wildflowerchild25]

My cousin in law was found dead of an apparent overdose on Saturday morning by my mother in law who was living with her. It was a huge shock. No one knew she was into drugs besides pot. I’m going to the funeral on Friday. It’s awful. Just like my husband. Gone way too soon. She was only 33. I wasn’t very close with her but she was in my wedding 8 years ago. It’s just such a tragedy. Her, my brother In law, and father in law, all gone within 8 months. That’s too much for any family to take.

Other than that everything is going well for me. I’m halfway through my master’s classes and now have an A and an A-. I have to get cracking on my final projects. We will be moving on June 22. I signed my contract for next year so I definitely have a job. I also am working at the school this summer instead of the summer camp just because the hours are better and I can get more done in the summer time. I already paid for before and after care at my son’s camp though which sucks. But oh well. I’m not as stressed out about moving as I was. I’m still stressed about school but again, not as much.

The most important thing I have to take care of right now is my smoking. My boyfriend found out that I’m smoking again and he was NOT pleased. It almost led to our first fight. But I groveled and apologized and promised to quit. So now I have to follow through on that promise. It helps that I can’t afford to smoke this week. I have $75 in my checking account to last me until next Wednesday. I have some money in savings that I could transfer but I need it for rent. So I’d rather not.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by bluebicycle

I love Deadpool! I’ve seen both as well.


The baby legs part... I was dying.

Oh yes !!! Baby legs Hahahaha , I woke up my husband laughing so loud lol

[sadveiledbride]

Haven't yet slept, it 3:30 AM EST. I hope to stay up for the next 9 or so hours and finish all my schoolwork. I feel purely awful... I need to get myself out of this deep dark hole I'm in.

[Wander]

Saw my T today. He was very encouraging. As I’ve been controlled all my life by some of those around me I struggle to take full control of my life. Also living under the threat of another episode is also a form of control. So now I’m trying to take back control of my life. We talked about other stuff but this was the main point.

Saw my GP. Blood test for gastritis was negative so I’m having an endoscopy Tuesday. She said it may be an ulcer. I just hope it’s not serious or permanent. Feeling ok mentally. I love being stable.

[Blueberrybook]

Getting an iron infusion right now. Barely made it here in time - horrific rain, traffic, lots of highway lanes shut off for construction, traffic signals out. Was pretty stressed, and that was with H driving me, had minor panic attack. I hate to be late anywhere and hence usually arrive ages early. Hope this helps my iron issues. Very cold right now. Mood so-so.

Hugs to everyone needing them.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by wildflowerchild25

My cousin in law was found dead of an apparent overdose on Saturday morning by my mother in law who was living with her. It was a huge shock. No one knew she was into drugs besides pot. I’m going to the funeral on Friday. It’s awful. Just like my husband. Gone way too soon. She was only 33. I wasn’t very close with her but she was in my wedding 8 years ago. It’s just such a tragedy. Her, my brother In law, and father in law, all gone within 8 months. That’s too much for any family to take.

Other than that everything is going well for me. I’m halfway through my master’s classes and now have an A and an A-. I have to get cracking on my final projects. We will be moving on June 22. I signed my contract for next year so I definitely have a job. I also am working at the school this summer instead of the summer camp just because the hours are better and I can get more done in the summer time. I already paid for before and after care at my son’s camp though which sucks. But oh well. I’m not as stressed out about moving as I was. I’m still stressed about school but again, not as much.

The most important thing I have to take care of right now is my smoking. My boyfriend found out that I’m smoking again and he was NOT pleased. It almost led to our first fight. But I groveled and apologized and promised to quit. So now I have to follow through on that promise. It helps that I can’t afford to smoke this week. I have $75 in my checking account to last me until next Wednesday. I have some money in savings that I could transfer but I need it for rent. So I’d rather not.

I'm so sorry, wildflowerchild. That is a lot of loss in a short time.

Congrats on your other stuff though. Way to go!

Good luck with the smoking. It's better on the other side, it really is. (I quit cold turkey when there was too much of a rainy spell. I didn't want to deal with going out in it. So I just stopped. Saves a lot of money for starters...)

[Phoenix_1]

Feeling much better, getting the Abilify out of my system. The half life is 72 hours. I can remember phone numbers again. I remembered my wifi password and yesterday's bank balance without looking them up and having to write them down. I was an accounting clerk my entire working life because I was so good with numbers. I'm starting to be able to think and remember again after 2 years of feeling like a zombie on Seroquel. I start Risperdal tomorrow, so I'm hoping that it works better.

[Sunflower123]

I’ve found that I can enjoy the beach if I have a strong drink to ease the pain in my knees and back. I know that opens up a whole lot of issues but I’m doing the best that I can under these circumstances. Two weeks won’t be so bad and I have appointments with a chiropractor and a physical therapist when I get back. I’ll also look into knee replacement.

Having said that, I just got through floating and am reading the latest James Patterson mystery novel by the shore. It’s relaxing and I am painfree for a short time. Beats lidocaine patches and heating pads.

The kids have been great. I really like M’s boyfriend. Nice guy, treats her well, intelligent and easy to talk to.

Warm wishes and hugs to all.

Heading home with my hubby on an express train from NYC. We saw a ballet at the Metropolitan Opera House. It was a pleasant day!

[Blueberrybook]

So sorry wildflowerchild. That is so sad

[VerMOZZica]

Today wasn`t good. I couldn`t get out of bed because I had a difficult time getting to sleep last night so I overslept. After I ate something I just went back to bed. I feel so horrible today. Tomorrow I have therapy if that hasn`t been cancelled. I hope your guys day was better than mine. Hugs to all that want them.

[sadveiledbride]

Cancelled an appt. of mine and felt really guilty, because I was so tired and if had gotten up, was going to run on 4 hours of sleep. I'm feeling really ****** right now. I'm tired as heck and I want to sleep for a long time. I hope one-day things get better. I just have to remember, that this two shall pass, that all things must pass, as George Harrison said. (((Hugs))) to all...

[~Christina]

Saw my T today , had a very good session. Cleaned , laundry and made yummy meatballs for dinner.

My husband has finished modifying the deck to fit our Home. He bought paint, deck stain and sealer. We have rain the rest of the week but will be dry all of next week , can’t wait to get it all done.

So this weird spot of psoriasis that popped up in my right eyebrow is literally making me crazy. I keep it coated in medication but I keep scratching it til it bleeds. Horrible auto immune disease to deal with for reals

Hugs and cookies for anyone wanting it.

[Miss Laura]

My appointment with my therapist is cancelled today. Gutted. Could of done with seeing her. Staying hone all day. Feeling blah today. I have been self harming this week which sucks.

[Daonnachd]

I had ECT yesterday and my mother-in-law was driving me. When she takes me I always tell her we need to leave two hours before I need to be there. Yesterday she was 20 minutes late. Then we hit bad traffic. Eventually it happened though. I don't know what they did differently, but I left in a lot of pain. This morning I still hurt and I've got to go to work.

I mentioned in another thread that I planned my meals today. So far I'm sticking to the plan and not exceeding allowances (calories, fat, carb).

I have my first private French lesson tomorrow after weeks of a break from them. I haven't done any homework for it. My therapist convinced me that it doesn't matter and that that shouldn't deter me from going. I'm repelled from doing it for reasons I won't go into.

I do want to clean up around the house this afternoon. I also want to make a soup to go along with dinner.

[Wild Coyote]

A warm hello to all!

Just dropping in to read, to say hello, etc.

I am still having a very rough ride. "Environmental" factors have only gotten much worse. I am trying hard to hang on and to get through. It'll be awhile yet.

I am seeing my pdoc "(she is also my therapist) every week right now. We are making frequent med changes, as the situation is changing as new information come to light... which is almost daily right now.

I am sorry I am not able to disclose more right now; however, the main person causing this severe distress knows my screen name here. (I know I can change my name here, etc. I am not ready to do so. At some point, I can see myself disclosing more info, when the timing is better.)

In addition to this severe and ongoing stress, my brother had surgery 3 days ago... and had almost died from the surgery. He was intubated and in ICU for 3 days/nights. Fortunately, he has been extubated and, for now, it appears he will be okay.

I am EXHAUSTED... AND CANNOT SLEEP. I am taking all of the Seroquel I can stand, which is causing a hangover type of an effect. I am starting to feel "mixed." I see pdoc tomorrow, thankfully.

I am sorry, I am dozing off as I write. Just wanted to say hi and to tell you I am missing you!