[Moose72]

I'm going out tonight with my friend. Omg- what a whirlwind trying to arrange it! I was going to drive to her new apartment downtown but the parking really sucks. Then I was going to uber it home and have my mom drive me there. Then another friend offered to pick me up after! Said just not to make it 2 am and we're good. Its hot so I changed into shorts. Going to have fancy ramen for dinner. This should be fun- especially after all the planning it took. Not just today but the last 2 weeks.

[Sunflower123]

BirdDancer - please accept my condolences on the loss of your beloved pet.

[Sunflower123]

Went out to dinner and a movie last night to distract myself from mourning the separation from my friend and constant companion. Slept all day but I’m rallying...going to the pool and then to another movie. He’ll be so much happier with new adventures and a family to run around with. He made a friend of every body and every pet at the center yesterday He was so happy and excited.

Can’t wait until July 2nd to see my NP.

Warm wishes to all.

[Unrigged64072835]

So sorry for the loss of your pet, BirdDancer.

[Polibeth]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Thanks to everyone for your warm thoughts regarding my sweet bird boy. Unfortunately, we lost him this morning. It's been extremely rough for my husband and me, and will continue to be for a while. The avian vet told us our sweet young boy accidentally swallowed something containing lead. I can't even imagine what there was that even contained lead. We will try to find out to notify other parrot owners of the risk.

Thank you for the warning - we have two parrots. We've had them for over 30 years and never had something like this happen but it's good info to know.

My condolences on the loss of your beloved pet parrot.

[Scooter9]

My condolences @BirdDancer.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Thanks to everyone for your warm thoughts regarding my sweet bird boy. Unfortunately, we lost him this morning. It's been extremely rough for my husband and me, and will continue to be for a while. The avian vet told us our sweet young boy accidentally swallowed something containing lead. I can't even imagine what there was that even contained lead. We will try to find out to notify other parrot owners of the risk.

Oh, BirdDancer, that is so sad. I'm so sorry for your loss.

[Innerzone]

Originally Posted by Wild Coyote

Yes, he always had a "reason" for everything. I'd questioned quite a bit, though I had trusted him. So if he told me something was true, I'd ,generally, believe him. I had been extremely adamant he never participate in certain activities and straight up told him if he was participating in anything illegal, I'd report him. so... he hid those things very well. We've found another internet network (another connection to the internet) tied in with our usual home internet network. He was using that network to cover up and to carry on with whatever he was doing. He also had a "burner phone."

Between having a separate and a "secret" network, having locks on "vaults" throughout different areas of the computer, etc., etc., he looks quite "guilty."

He is adamant that he knows nothing about the secret network, the vaults full of XXX, etc. He continues to shout that someone hates him and is trying to set him up. He is VERY believable. pathological liars often convince themselves that they are not lying.

Interestingly, I had told him about some of the "things" I have found. He just sat there and/or admitted to them. However, once the police became involved, he'd started screaming "set-up!"

Yes, it is very disturbing to me that anyone could be that deceitful. and could carry on for years! I just don't understand living a double life like that? Why would he stay with someone for 27 years if he has to cover up who he is and what he is doing? Maybe because his secret activities are not generally acceptable to most anyone?

His "blips," those times certain aspects of himself slipped out, he had adamantly blamed his BP illness. He'd see his pdoc and would pull the wool over his pdoc's eyes, as well. I was invited into sessions now and then, so H could "prove" his BP "made him do it." He has had his pdocs convinced of this. One female pdoc had clearly said his issues were more "character - related" than related to BP. She was immediately "fired."

To this day, every time I start to explain the situation to one of my doctors, they ALL blame his behavior on his BP! It has NOTHING to do with BP illness! His "character" sucks! Much to my chagrin.

I see much more now, looking back. I am both angry and saddened.

It all is doing a number on my head, and is messing with "trust" in lots of ways.

WC, I cannot tell you how much I wish I could physically be there for you. I have experienced that sort of deceitfulness and defensive lying and BS, but the scale of your situation dwarfs mine. I can hardly imagine that level of betrayal. My heart goes out to you so very, very much....
So much to you.

[~Christina]

Originally Posted by BirdDancer

Thanks to everyone for your warm thoughts regarding my sweet bird boy. Unfortunately, we lost him this morning. It's been extremely rough for my husband and me, and will continue to be for a while. The avian vet told us our sweet young boy accidentally swallowed something containing lead. I can't even imagine what there was that even contained lead. We will try to find out to notify other parrot owners of the risk.

Oh no I am so sorry for your loss

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Innerzone

WC, I cannot tell you how much I wish I could physically be there for you. I have experienced that sort of deceitfulness and defensive lying and BS, but the scale of your situation dwarfs mine. I can hardly imagine that level of betrayal. My heart goes out to you so very, very much....
So much to you.

Hi Innerzone
Thanks for your kind response.
I am very sorry you have been treated this way, too.
It's hard to comprehend, isn't it?

I might never know what he's been up to, even today. I unknowingly caught him off guard by telling him to leave immediately when I had first confronted him. He did not have the time to "collect" his many electronic devices. I took a look. Life will never be the same.

I am trying to chill. I don't have a lot of support right now. Most of my family tends to not want to hear anything that's not "blue skies and smooth sailing." This "guy" used to be my best friend, so...he and I would have "handled it." Problem is, he's the "it."

Thanks again! I truly and deeply appreciate your response.

[~Christina]

BirdDancer I am so sorry for your loss.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Jennifer 1967

Went out to dinner and a movie last night to distract myself from mourning the separation from my friend and constant companion. Slept all day but I’m rallying...going to the pool and then to another movie. He’ll be so much happier with new adventures and a family to run around with. He made a friend of every body and every pet at the center yesterday He was so happy and excited.

Can’t wait until July 2nd to see my NP.

Warm wishes to all.

I am sorry you are grieving your companion. I hope this gets easier with time. My service dog has been gone approx. 9 years now and I still miss her terribly.

June 2nd is just around the corner. Yet it may feel a bit far away for you?

I do hope you are enjoying the movies! I wish I lived nearby and could go to the movies with you!

Thinking of you!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Moose72

I'm going out tonight with my friend. Omg- what a whirlwind trying to arrange it! I was going to drive to her new apartment downtown but the parking really sucks. Then I was going to uber it home and have my mom drive me there. Then another friend offered to pick me up after! Said just not to make it 2 am and we're good. Its hot so I changed into shorts. Going to have fancy ramen for dinner. This should be fun- especially after all the planning it took. Not just today but the last 2 weeks.

I hope you have a lot of FUN!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by MidnightManiac

I'm trying to not swing downwards today. It's hard...although it's a beautiful day and I'm grateful fo the su shining and all that, I feel....insignificant and unwanted. By tonight who knows. Might feel all powerful and invulnerable again.

I am sorry you have had a rough day.
I do hope you are able to enjoy your evening.
Keep us posted!

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by hopeless2015

Heading Texas Roadhouse for lunch with family. My Mom is 74 today!! If I can be half the woman she is, I'll be doing good. Shes one hell of of lady.

Hugs to all

Hi hopeless, It's a treat to have you around!
Did you go by motorcycle, perhaps?
Much

So sorry about dear Neruda, BirdDancer. I so enjoyed hearing about him and all his antics especially his playing soccer.

[Nammu]

Oh no. So sorry about your loss Birddancer.

WC I can't even imagine.

[Wild Coyote]

Originally Posted by Nammu

Oh no. So sorry about your loss Birddancer.

WC I can't even imagine.

Thanks, Nammu!
I am still having difficulty fathoming any of it and I have most of the hard evidence right in front of me.
I hope your days have been less humid!? It was very humid here today. I was working on paperwork and it was very soggy!
Hugs to you!

[Blueberrybook]

So sorry, BirdDancer

I had blood work done on Thursday, about 3 weeks after my 2nd iron infusion. The numbers look good so far. In fact, my iron saturation has never been this high in recent memory. I went from 3% to 35% (range 11-50% for normal). No longer anemic but still some days are good, some bad. I am told 6 weeks to feel the full effects of this infusion. I had labs again the first week of September, see the hematologist Sept. 10.

Slept in today, feel like I didn't get much accomplished though I did read some, and I washed all the bedding for our bed in the master bedroom., though that was a lot - sheets, quilt, 2 afghans, 2 throws, a blanket. Also went to urgent care because I stubbed the little toe I always break & the one next to it yesterday morning, and my toes/foot were bruised and painful. Of course, since I took the trouble to go there, they are not broken, just badly bruised, got the RICE advice - rest, ice, compression, elevation. Stupid ulcer, all I can take for pain is Tylenol, which did nothing, and at least the doctor gave me an anti-inflammatory injection (doesn't have to pass through the digestive system), and that is helping a lot.

[sadveiledbride]

Feeling very sad and alone.