[jattitude74]

Hey everyone, Just found out my 13 yr old daughter was cutting herself as if that isn't enough she wants to die and is showing classic signs of BP, anxiety,anger, self image issues. She want to the hospital a few nights ago and they did an eval. doc said he felt comfortable sending her home with me as it 'was not too severe' and she would benefit more from outpatient treatment. All fine I guess, until I get home and the only place to get her into can't until tuesday!!! Hello help!! She needs constant supervision and I have been out of work for 3 days, not like money is more important, but we don't have any to begin with. Anyways, people have told me that cutting is not the same as trying to commit the ungodly "S" word, don't get it especially if she said shedidn't want to be here anymore. Can somene clearify for me? I am just barely on the line of stabilization my self and I am wonder how I am going to hold it all together for ,she is my life and I want here to be happy and well. I have seen the sighns of BP for a while and ignored them, I guess I was in denial as I was with myself, can't ignore them any further and I am scared to death something will happen to her. Anyone else with BP children have any tips? I was just diagnosed 1.5 years ago and still having a hard time I don't know if it the same as with adults or is treatment different, what am I suppose to lookout for?I also need to take care of my self so I can be strong for her it is going to be hard, help----Jen

[Cthomas]

Ok. i dont have a kid with BP. but i AM bp.
cutting is certainly NOT the same as the dreaded "s".
Cutting for ME, is a release from the emotions that come up and want me to do the dreaded "s". So in a way its the physical pain crossing out the emotional pain. Its temporary and i try to NOT do it. The scars dont go away.

I know this is hard for you but you are doing so good by her. Try to not worry as much. Just keep telling her you love her. She needs to hear it as much as possible k? Aside from that,, be gentle with yourself. You are a wonderful mother!!!!

(((((((((HUGS))))))))))
Hope this helps some,
Colleen

[selfy]

well from my own experiences and others, cutting is not suicide. its used to prevent it.
i hate to say that sometimes it was better i cut than did the other. BUT i will never condone self injury. it was simply a matter of the fact that i was so sure id top myself i did it to feel better.
dont try to stop her by preventing it, she will always find another way. it is good u r supervising her, you are a caring mother. but you need to remember yourself. make sure u give her lots of hugs.
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