Bipolar Check-in #40

Wild Coyote I am very sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry to all those who have lost someone this weekend. Wild coyote and scooter, you are in my thoughts. As are you, nammu, with the situation with your mother. I hope all turns out well!

I am sorry for your loss, scooter.

I’ve had a great weekend so far. We made it to the mountains around 7pm last night and checked in. Our inn upgraded us to one of the cabins free of charge so that was nice. Our room is very big and we have a king size bed. It’s very pretty. Yesterday we went to a great restaurant after we got here. It was so good! Then today we went to a really cool antique market. Found a few great Christmas presents. I found a vintage set of Eagles football glasses for my brother and a vintage yeungling can for my BIL, as well as an antique farmers almanac for my grandmother. Then we went to lunch at a great place, and went to a vineyard. I bought some great wines, another Christmas gift for my SIL, and then we came back to the room. Then off to another great restaurant for dinner. It’s been such a nice day!

Tomorrow we are going to get breakfast then head back home. We don’t have to pick up my son until about 1pm so we will probably just chill out, get some errands done, etc.

I am finally cleared to start work on Monday! So I can finally start my job. I know the kid I’m going to be working with and he is WILD. He’s a primary student, which will be really different for me since I’ve only ever worked with middle/high school students. But it should be a refreshing challenge.

So glad I had this nice weekend away!

I have so much cleaning I need to catch up on, it's extremely overwhelming to think about. I didn't keep up with it through the months I was having psychosis and it's piled up over all that time. I love having my place nice and clean and want to get it that way again though. I'm trying to think of a way to make it more fun. Music generally helps. Breaking it down into different tasks. I guess I'll see how it goes tomorrow, I'm going to spend a majority of the day working on it and probably into the week.

3 more weeks and I should get some news regarding college. Just praying it all goes the way I'm hoping it does.

It's been a week since my abilify was increased. No problems, and doing really well. It's obliterated my symptoms, especially the voices and paranoia. I'm very thankful for it. I never thought things could be so quiet in my head

I'm still fighting with pneumonia (it's 1 step forward, 2 steps back).

It's also my birthday today - and I'm too sick to go out and celebrate but I've gotten so many texts and calls I feel very blessed.

Happy happy birthday!
bizi

I like going to Indian buffets! I'd had a huge birthday party for neighbors at one! had a blast!!1

oh! Veggie chile and cornbread! Yummy!

I've been feeling quiet and mostly just lurking lately. I'm praying for all of you going through hard times with loss, illness, and family and am happy for those who have shared good news. Hugs to everyone.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Happy birthday!!!

It's great to hear from you!
i think of you often and i hope you will be okay!?


Thank you for your Love and support!
See you soon!?
Thinking of you!

Happy Birthday!

Okay ... I just spent forever replying to everyone and Poof PC ate it

I’ll try again but I’m sure I won’t be so wordy ..... which you all might enjoy better Hahaha

Wild I’m so glad your having a great trip and anniversary

Bluebird.. yes lots of music and set a timer for 15 mins

Polilbeth. I’m sorry your pneumonia is being so stubborn. Hope you make a turn for the better fast and celebrate when your feeling better Happy Birthday

WC awww I’m sorry I’m lost a good friend. Fantastic news about your aunt. One hospital gave no hope , she got moved to another and now she’s having lunch with her sweetheart Fantastic

IZ Thanks for the lovely compliment. How’s work going?? Are you getting enough sleep ? Still busy with meet ups ?? I sure wish I had some here I do isolate too much

BirdDancer, i hate that your struggling I hope Pdoc and T can help, I’m always around

Jennifer I hate that life is knocking you down.. can M drive a bit further next time ? Do you think maybe you should see a T for a while? A lot of time having that accountability can help, just a thought

Yellow ??? Holy Busy day ! I’m jealous !

Nammu I am so happy to see your Mom has improved!!! Lol@ your cat! I hope you soon have great dreams to share

How are you christina?
Our democratic governor just won reelection in a republican state....it was close. Hubby was worried for his job.
bizi

Thanks Bizi ! How am I ? I honestly don’t really know, ugh.

I think the pain/breathing/Fibro/cfs/PsA/insomnia/waiting on Ultrasound results etc etc

It’s all just suffocating me right now. I think a lot about an exit, but no plan or letter writing, (that’s when I know I need help. )

I just hope as I get answers and I go back to breathing well my outlook and mood will improve, this time of year is historically hard for me so I have to keep that in mind.

All the political stuff is really awful..,. Hopefully your husband won’t have to worry about his job. Everything about life is so daunting and scary with what’s going on in our country.

How’s life treating you ?

Thank you for being honest. I am glad that you are safe.
You have been Struggling to breath and being so ill for too long....
Along with your hubby's health....you bear a heavy weight on your shoulders. You are a peach. ((((((HUGS)))))))

Thank you and I appreciate your support...

bizi

Sorry Christina hopefully things improve soon. I've been busy setting up self study for myself. I don't know if I'm stable or not. I'm not over thinking it though. I do miss you guys.

Thanks !!!!

I think it’s good your not over thinking anything and just “ doing”

Thank you everyone for your condolences and for your support, it's very much appreciated.

In better news my eldest son is coming to visit next week. He also moved closer and he's now just in California instead of a 21 hour flight (he's still 6 hours away for me but he's much closer than before).

Also my mother is turning 75 next week and we have arranged a big gathering for her at a nice restaurant. I'm paying a big chunk on my credit card to make room for the big bill. There will be 13 people at the party.

I have been thinking about how I have been feeling in preparation for answering my pdoc when she asks. I'm on the fence about whether the depression is better or whether this is a bit of hypomania and whether I'm happy with the way things are at the moment.

The brain zaps are getting on my nerves. They're completely random so far. I feel so strange taking about them because they're so strange, I feel as if others think I'm making this up (no one here).

I wonder if these zaps are related to my sleep because I'm down to about 5.5 hours a night when I used to get 8 to 9 hours before this started.

I finished and published the article I was working on. Now that it's out of my system I can get back to the book.

My father will be discharged from the physical rehab center sometime next week. I must say that my siblings and I had quite a disagreement about where Dad should go from there. Dad clearly stated that he did not feel safe to go home (re: his drinking urges - people, places, things). In the end, my dad chose what my siblings were offering. That's fine. At least an action plan is decided on and in the works. Dad will move, temporarily, into an assisted living facility. It is a nice one, but not as close to me as the ones my sister and I looked at a few days ago. It's actually exactly right in between where my siblings live and where I live. That is generally nice, but the thing is is that the IOP (Intensive Outpatient Program) he will attend is literally a 3-minute drive from my house. So, instead of me driving 10 minutes to a place to pick him up, I'll need to drive 25 minutes. I know, not that big of a deal. I did ask my siblings if they could sometimes pick him up at his assisted living and drop him off at the IOP. I would then take him back to the assisted living. Maybe in the end this will work out even better for me.

My sister sent me a long shopping list full of things that our dad needs for the assisted living. I'm going to go to Target once she clarifies a few things.

I am still nutty about my Christmas cookie project. I finally got my husband to look for one additional Czech Christmas cookie recipe from his mother's notes. He had to translate it for me. We made them once in the past and it was a failure, but I think that was because he was directing the project. This time I finally got a sense for the recipe. I'm going to make them either today or tomorrow and take photos. Wish me luck in getting them right this time. Then, I'll have only one additional cookie to make. The last ones will be the most challenging and potentially the most impressive. The last will be 3-dimensional cookies. They are a nut-based "cookie" made with a mold in the shape of a bee hive. Then then are hollowed slightly and filled with rum cream and set on a vanilla wafer. Normally they look cute, but I'm going to REALLY make them impressive by putting honey-colored chocolate on the tops of some and top them with an edible decoration that looks like a bee. Others I'll leave traditional. Some others I will coat with white chocolate and put edible silver star-shaped glitter on. Some I will coat in white chocolate colored green with food coloring, and then decorate with multi-color non-pareils to resemble a 3-D Christmas tree. Hubby said he'd be afraid for his sister to see these for fear she'd think I was going nutty again.

@BirdDancer

Am happy for you that you have been passionate about the cookies. will await for the finished product photos! I hope they come out just like you want them to come out.
Good news about your dad. I hope your family comes together for his IOP sessions.
thinking of you today.
hugs
(((((HUGS)))))
bizi

Happy birthday!

Happy Birthday, Polibeth! I do hope you recover from the pneumonia quickly.

Thinking of you. I’m sorry you are going through so much. I hope this all gets straightened out soon. Continued prayers for you and your husband.